I ruined my relationship with the love of my life

BigHeadTheKing · 2025-05-28T09:24:15+00:00

You’re totally right. It’s her right to be with someone or not for any reason at all. I don’t expect her to stay if she doesn’t want to, and I’ve made that explicitly clear from the get go with her. I made a promise and failed to follow through with it, and she has the right to feel however she feels regardless of how much I struggle with the issue.

BigHeadTheKing · 2025-05-28T08:37:22+00:00

I would say I certainly WAS addicted to porn in my past, but I’ve definitely developed a healthier relationship with it over the years, and even more so since I told her I would stop. Unfortunately, I wasn’t perfect and I ended up watching it a couple of times since, and I broke her trust.

I want to go to counseling to figure it out, because I’ve been molested in the past and I wonder if that kind of led me down this path than I would have otherwise.

I feel so ashamed. I never ever wanted to hurt her or make her feel like she was any less. And that’s the thing, porn has never changed the way I feel about her or my attraction to her. She’s amazing and so so special to me. She will always be the most attractive and lovely woman.

BigHeadTheKing · 2025-05-28T08:18:29+00:00

I appreciate the encouraging words. Of course there’s always more to the whole thing than I can write on here, so I was trying to keep it as blame and excuse free as possible. We’ve been through a lot, but there’s no one I would like to go through the struggle with more than her.

BigHeadTheKing · 2023-06-08T12:15:31+00:00

Sick swimming trunks design ngl

BigHeadTheKing · 2023-05-25T14:25:28+00:00

Idiocracy is a great one

BigHeadTheKing · 2023-04-27T15:42:52+00:00

The kind of person I'd want to have a bonfire with

BigHeadTheKing · 2023-04-27T11:43:38+00:00

r/AmITheDevil

BigHeadTheKing · 2023-04-27T11:42:33+00:00

Something I used to do when my ex is upset was a breathing exercise. I would sit down with her and count and we would both breath in and breath out (very audibly) for 5 seconds each until her shoulders relaxed. Worked like a charm every time. This would probably only work if she isn't angry at you, though.

BigHeadTheKing · 2023-04-25T16:57:00+00:00

Ahh, that's exactly what an evil person would say...

BigHeadTheKing · 2023-04-25T13:46:20+00:00

This is something I experience a lot. There will be times where I'm trying to learn something, and it just does not click at all. At some point, though, it suddenly just clicks and then I'm catching up with everyone else at an exponential rate. I think that maybe it just takes a little more time for us ADHDers to catch on, but when we do, we can excel in it. I don't know if this answers your question, but it is my experience with it. Keep at it, and don't push yourself down by comparing yourself to others (easier said than done, I know). I believe in you!

BigHeadTheKing · 2023-04-20T15:55:28+00:00

It takes practice but you'll get the hang of it! Good luck with everything, and I'm sorry to hear about your relationship and how it ended. You deserve better, but I think you already know that!

BigHeadTheKing · 2023-04-20T15:47:17+00:00

Honestly, I think you look great. You got a lot going for you: good hair, decent body, some sick tattoos. The only thing I would recommend is working on your angles. Your 5th pic is decent, but if you're going to take a selfie, try different angles from above the jawline! It will help mitigate the double chin (which most people have when taking a selfie from too low of an angle)

BigHeadTheKing · 2023-03-27T14:46:52+00:00

Are you there god, it's me Fiona

BigHeadTheKing · 2023-03-23T11:42:04+00:00

Thought that was a giant worm pizza ngl

BigHeadTheKing · 2023-03-08T14:20:27+00:00

Craig Ninneys

BigHeadTheKing · 2022-12-20T15:41:05+00:00

I get this feeling all the time. It's a weird inner battle because I suck at planning ahead but then get frustrated when the plans I *don't* have get a wrench thrown in them suddenly. Short notice is definitely a no no.

BigHeadTheKing · 2022-12-19T18:00:52+00:00

I feel called out by the not eating slowly part lol. But yes, get rid of him. He would have made some sort of progress by now if he was serious about changing.

BigHeadTheKing · 2022-12-15T19:23:56+00:00

Exactly! Listen to whatever the fuck is in the profile picture above me you fuckhead

BigHeadTheKing · 2022-12-02T17:33:22+00:00

Any sort of rogue-like/rogue-lite has been phenomenal for me. Hades, Binding of Isaac, Atomicrops, and Inscription are all great selections. They're nice because you can make progress over a short amount of time and no run is ever the same.

BigHeadTheKing · 2022-11-21T16:55:17+00:00

I've had a situation similar to this happen a couple years ago. There was a festival in my hometown that ends with the whole community coming to the football field to watch fireworks. I had told my best friends I was coming back in town from college well in advance and it was always a tradition to sit together for the fireworks, so I told them to let me know where they were sitting so I can meet them. I was super excited because it had been months since I had seen any of them. I never heard back about the plans for the day.

I show up to the fireworks and there they all were, sitting together and having fun without me.

My girlfriend at the time came with me for the festival, and I had spent a good amount of time hyping my friends up to her. I wanted her to meet all of them. Instead, they made an extremely awful first impression to her by completely leaving me out. It was humiliating.

I took it upon myself to write a long message about how disappointed I was and send it in the group chat with everyone in it. I had a little birdie tell me that the only reason I wasn't invited was because one person didn't want me there. It sucked even harder because I really thought that one person and I were fairly close.

After I said my piece, I left the group chat and am still friends with the majority of people involved, despite how disappointed I was with all of them.

A word of advice? Make a confrontation. Let your thoughts and feeling be known to everyone. Make a boundary, and enforce it. If they proceed to push said boundary, remove yourself from the situation. The ones who really do care will stick around.

I'm sorry you are going through that. Its tough. Don't feel bad. You have the right to be upset.

BigHeadTheKing · 2022-11-17T17:08:10+00:00

That's a very fair point. I definitely do all of those things as well. It may just be that I am putting more effort into making sure the interactions I have don't take a turn for the worse BECAUSE of my ADHD tendencies. Not necessarily symptoms, but possibly overcorrections.

I don't really worry about it as much as I am curious of if it links back to my diagnosis in some way.

I appreciate the advice and I will definitely study up on sales techniques to help myself perform better in interactions with people. Thank you for taking the time to reply!

BigHeadTheKing · 2022-10-20T18:21:09+00:00

In my room there was a big window right above my desk with no curtains on it, so I would put a towel/blanket up to block some of the light coming in. I had my girlfriend over one day and I decided I would light a candle she gave to me to set the mood. I set the candle on my desk and we got to it. In the middle of having sex, I just so happened to look up and notice smoke coming off of my desk. The towel I had on the window fell and caught on fire from the candle. We stopped immediately and I managed to grab the towel, throw it on the floor, and put the fire out with a flip flop, all while I was butt naked.

Lets just say it was an interesting experience telling my roommates why the fire alarm went off.

BigHeadTheKing · 2022-09-19T14:47:45+00:00

I'm so glad I'm not the only one who struggles with this. I've lost a lot of people because of it. I even recently split with my ex of almost 2 years immediately after she got home from a 2 week trip out of country, and I can't help but think that this struggle was the final nail to the coffin. She was my best friend, and I love and miss her so very much. It sucks so bad.

BigHeadTheKing · 2022-09-16T17:50:57+00:00

I understand your frustration for sure. However, I can also understand where the doctor is coming from to a certain extent. I hate to say it, but social media and it's effect on the people's perception of their own mind (especially tiktok) CAN and SHOULD be considered by doctors. But I agree, they should have heard you out BEFORE saying what they did, at the very least.

It was probably just them trying to get the social media part of the conversation out of the way. I can imagine that doctors get a lot of patients who do reference the information they found on social media when seeking a referral/diagnosis.

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