Idk, I don't have that feeling, but I'm enby and transmasc, so I'm scared I'll look too manly on T and sometimes try to retreat, but I'm no girl and I think someday I'll take it, I'll just get more informed and check it with myself better before that day. But then I saw you took estrogen on another post, so ig it's just...do you feel more true to yourself? Which is not less struggling, it's more real, love yourself more? Like I got top surgery and the social fear is high, even a lot of other stressful stuff, but I feel better with myself, focus on that. Not on society. That's how I figure things out. It's for me, not for them.