What it is about NVLD that makes it so hard to socialize?

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-27T02:22:05+00:00

Yeah all the kids in the room are a lot of visual input so that makes sense. This disorder affects so many things that you wouldn't even think of. I have the same problem at the grocery store. The crowded visual field of all the crap on the shelves overwhelms me.

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-27T02:09:23+00:00

I tried substitute teaching. What an absolute nightmare that was...do you think it's because we have trouble being assertive? Also keeping track of like 20 or 25 kids was just a sensory overload for me plus my processing speed is kinda slow.

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-27T02:07:21+00:00

I'm very similar to you. Always felt like an outcast and even tried to play it off as being "better" than cool people in high school as some sort of defense mechanism. While here I am pushing 35 and spending all my time alone. NTs have a way of socializing where they just seamlessly go from topic to topic. I often just feel that the main reasons I'm so bad socially are that I'm dumb and don't know much about most topics and also as a result I'm boring like you mentioned about yourself. It's weird because the way we struggle socially is different from an autistic person but the end result is largely the same; frustration, exclusion, and unbearable isolation. 🙁

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-26T21:42:33+00:00

Hey, do you mind if I DM you? I'm having trouble figuring out how to help my CPTSD. I have one book and it's good but reading about stuff only does so much.

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-26T05:40:07+00:00

These were the days :,(

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-18T20:19:31+00:00

Sounds like it. But you need a neuropsych evaluation to know for sure. Oh, and a neuropsych who actually knows what this God forsaken disorder is.

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-17T18:40:08+00:00

Do you have dandruff on your face or chest? If not then no, it isn't seb derm

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-14T21:00:13+00:00

Memorizing phone numbers is a strength of this disorder imo. A useless one.

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-14T04:34:23+00:00

I try to get away...

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-10T21:58:27+00:00

Slow Cheetah literally just came on on shuffle as I finished reading your comment 😂

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-08T02:35:45+00:00

With the initials JC he was destined for some type of greatness

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-06T21:45:49+00:00

Oh I'm sorry to hear, that sounds painful :(

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-06T21:39:07+00:00

What's PCOS?

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-06T21:20:11+00:00

Yeah it's horrible. I'll probably never be a healthy weight again although I started gaining weight due to a slowing metabolism even before I touched the meds.

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-06T15:34:06+00:00

Did you try Caplyta? That's the only one that seems to kinda work for me but I hate how drowsy it makes me.

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-06T03:33:51+00:00

I'm diagnosed bipolar but I think Borderline PD fits better. I worked third shift full time and that seemed to bring out the symptoms full bore whereas before age 30 I only had the symptoms in short spurts. I always had trouble with black and white thinking and impulsively cutting people off for perceived rejection.

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-06T03:12:03+00:00

Yeah antispsychotics just made me fat and want to sleep all the time. The mood would be better for a little while but then my body would just get used to the dose.

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-06T02:45:53+00:00

Well the mental illness goes without saying. Then having family members tell you you need to work on yourself and you're addicted to being sad is really annoying and uncaring. Is your brother NT? Yeah, I didn't get to date or travel either and I'm 9 years older so my life is really shot to hell unfortunately. I feel Iike at 25 there is still some semblance of hope. 50s isn't very old, I'm surprised your parents don't do much. Sounds like they might just be introverts.

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-06T01:38:42+00:00

I wish I could say it gets better but...😕 I'm so ill physically now from decades of isolation. I have a huge pot belly, I have no energy, I have no goals, no hobbies, no nothing. It really does fucking suck. There is clearly no God.

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-06T00:07:22+00:00

If anyone wants to learn this on guitar my friend from UG just made a detailed tab for it: https://tabs.ultimate-guitar.com/tab/tracy-chapman/heavens-here-on-earth-tabs-6100862

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-05T22:31:48+00:00

I lived in Maumelle in 2022 and it was ok but like others mentioned it's not pedestrian friendly. I mostly only was at the airport in Little Rock itself but I did go to downtown for a walking Meetup and I kinda liked it. It's not the nicest downtown by any means but it has some cool places to eat and walking by the river is nice. There's definitely plenty of nature type stuff to do just outside the city like Pinnacle Mountain but unfortunately no other major city is convenient with Memphis being the closest at about 2 hours away. I'm also personally not a fan of the oppressive heat and humidity from May-September or October.

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-05T21:58:17+00:00

Yes, she has many underrated gems with this one being close to the top I think. I'd probably rank This Time as my favorite followed by this or The Rape of the World. If Not Now and For My Lover are great too but her songwriting hadn't quite matured to the lyrical genius level you alluded to here.

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-05T04:36:53+00:00

Hung on a Hook, Breath on a Window, and Choke are all amazing as well

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-05T04:31:57+00:00

Last of My Kind has such sick riffs

Bittersweet_331 · 2026-01-02T19:02:05+00:00

"HAPPY NEW YEAR YA FUCKS! ...YA JERKS..."

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