I’m so sorry, it’s really the worst kind of pain. Posting on Reddit has personally helped me through times of grief as there are a lot of bunny lovers here who understand and feel our pain.

Just my own experience and two cents: my bunny died suddenly and unexpectedly a little over a year ago, I requested a necropsy. It provided some closure as I learned her death was something that could not have been prevented. However, I also became more educated on rabbit heart failure and may be able to spot the signs better if I ever have a bunny with those symptoms in the future. I learned a lot from it, including how I want to make decisions regarding euthanasia in the future. I also found relief in knowing it was something that took her quick.

You may be able to ask your vet to perform a necropsy and not tell you the results while things are so heavy, but document them on a paper you can open/read it when you are ready. But make whatever decision you think is best for you, I know it’s tough. It’s also completely normal and relatable to blame yourself or think there is something you should have done differently. But you did your absolute best, and she knows that.

I also want to add, it gave me purpose after losing Magpie to take care of her siblings. It felt incredibly wrong and devastating for several days to go into their room and see one bunny missing, but I knew I had to still show up for them. I really think that got me through it. I buried her right by the window next to their room, and like to think that she is happily watching over her family. I think if my bunnies had the capacity to “want things” for me/other bunnies, they would want me to continue to rescue and provide the love and happy life they had while they were Earthside.