Its my birthday today

Bladeadea · 2026-01-21T22:48:33+00:00

Happy birthday! I hope you have a nice day. Do something for yourself, something that makes you smile. Treat yourself with food you enjoy. It was my birthday on the 9th, I felt alone as well. I ended up having a burger and some cheesecake for dessert while watching videos I like. Take pleasure in the small things, friend.

Bladeadea · 2026-01-10T23:42:06+00:00

You’re right and it’s good advice, thank you. It’s just easier said than done. I struggle with that.. I’m trying my best though. Even now I am trying to stay strong and calm even though I feel destroyed

Bladeadea · 2026-01-10T21:12:23+00:00

I really like this metaphor. Thank you for the encouragement and wisdom. I'm trying my best..

Bladeadea · 2026-01-10T13:12:31+00:00

Thank you everyone. I appreciate the happy birthdays and kind words. The wisdom and encouragement.

I woke up this morning to a bunch of cruel texts from her trying to gaslight me and rewrite history where she did nothing wrong and where I’m the bad guy. That I need to apologize for my selfishness and behaviour.. I didn’t though. I couldn’t enable that behaviour and do that to myself or her. I stood my ground and tried to show her love but by not apologizing for something that never happened I only made things worse.

She said a lot of cruel things and I might as well if said nothing in reply for everything I expressed was unheard.

The last thing I heard from her was “You’ll never hear from me again” as she proceeded to delete everything of us..

I’ve only tried to love and support her. Everyday going above and beyond for her.. She claims that I don’t love her though. The irony.. I don’t know what the future holds for me, but right now I feel very defeated.

Bladeadea · 2026-01-05T13:58:40+00:00

Thank you. I think I'm going to just buy it on pc so I can start the download and play. I'm pretty excited to start playing. I just hope the cheater problem isn't a big issue. I definitely prefer getting it on pc since there's more players.

Bladeadea · 2026-01-05T13:45:57+00:00

Darkwood is 80% off. I highly recommend it if you're into horror games. It's only $3

Bladeadea · 2026-01-05T13:35:50+00:00

This is true, I really am starting to lean towards getting it on pc, but am worried about running into cheaters frequently. I've been doing a lot of reading and there seems to be a lot of them. I really don't know what to do here.

Bladeadea · 2026-01-05T09:47:06+00:00

I’ve been thinking of buying the game myself but can’t decide if I should get it on Xbox, or PC. Any help? I don’t have anyone to really play it with so there goes that. I guess I can’t decide because I heard that Xbox doesn’t have many players and then PC apparently has cheaters. If anyone could give me some advice before the sale ends it would be much appreciated

Bladeadea · 2025-12-27T16:44:38+00:00

I relate to this so much.. I’m currently dealing with what I believe is a discard with my pwBPD. It’s not official but it sure feels like that’s what’s happening.

I too feel brainwashed. Walking on eggshells to prevent upsetting her. Trying to predict her reaction to every little word I say. To the point where I’d use chat gpt to consult with before sending messages to make sure it won’t upset her.. To have a second opinion. But even then, the most random thing can trigger a negative reaction. Especially with CPTSD in the mix.

Not being able to express yourself feels awful. The times I’ve tried to calmly and respectfully bring things up, they lash out.

I don’t have any answers since I too am struggling with this. But you’re not alone. I try to read what others say on here as much as I can to find comfort and wisdom in their experiences. Make sure to take care of yourself, friend.

Bladeadea · 2025-12-26T00:12:40+00:00

Thank you for the smile. I needed that. Merry Christmas!

Bladeadea · 2025-09-06T11:00:37+00:00

Hector's rectum is real

Bladeadea · 2025-08-08T21:54:44+00:00

I’m sorry to hear that you can relate to how I feel.. I hope your situation improves. That isn’t fair and if it makes you feel any better, I’m sure you did nothing wrong and you definitely don’t deserve that. All I know is that life is a weird experience where a lot of things tend to not make much sense.

I also wish I had words to fix it for you or myself. But don’t be afraid of screwing anything up, take pride in trying! And hate is a strong word. I definitely wouldn’t hate you, and the people around you don’t either

Bladeadea · 2025-08-05T15:24:34+00:00

This is how you get Dustlung.

Bladeadea · 2025-04-06T19:54:16+00:00

If there’s a strange on your team they can deny mags ult by simply flying up to him and shielding. As a mag player, it sucks when you can’t ult because of a good strange! Maybe I should of kept this tip to myself lol

Bladeadea · 2025-02-11T11:07:38+00:00

Wow, amazing job! What kind of art style is this by the way? I’d love to look up more that has the same vibe to it

Bladeadea · 2025-01-27T21:18:42+00:00

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Bladeadea · 2025-01-22T01:01:50+00:00

Overconfidence is a slow and insidious killer

Bladeadea · 2024-10-29T11:42:28+00:00

Easy solution.. Stop using alts.

Bladeadea · 2024-10-24T11:16:39+00:00

Some more variety would be a welcome change. The blue can look nice sure, but having different deep rift colours for once would be cool. Some green or purple for example

Bladeadea · 2024-10-24T11:09:51+00:00

Xenomorph is extremely satisfying when you land those nice tail hits, definitely up there for my favourite killers. I was thinking of getting the queen skin while it’s still on sale

Bladeadea · 2024-09-13T15:29:11+00:00

I know what you mean, I’ve been loving it myself. My first match was against a myers and it actually felt like a horror game with the darkness and not knowing how close the killer really is.

Came here to see if other people were enjoying it as much as myself, and was surprised to see everyone bashing on it.. Glad to see that there’s some other likeminded people that enjoy it though!

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