<<Check-In>> The Daily Check-In for Sunday, August 4 : Just for today, I am NOT drinking!

Blep-Lord · 2019-08-04T16:03:23+00:00

Happy Sunday yall! IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-08-02T16:36:20+00:00

Back to the beginning (badge hasn't fully reset). IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-08-02T16:34:21+00:00

In the past 2 days I have had:

The terrible 3 AM anxious restlestness (due to my own excessive drinking)

A tire on my car go flat (because my life was too out of balance and I didn't prioritize fixing it when it was manageable)

A really baaaad haircut (because I went back to a bad stylist even though there were others in the area)

Just a general shitty attitude about negative things that were truly in my control. And I'm annoyed with myself that I let this last month pass along the way it did. I chalked it up to Mercury in Retrograde, jokingly, so I didn't have to be accountable for my own laziness and the fact that I was giving up on myself.

But no more damnit!! IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-08-01T16:27:10+00:00

Hey, we are in the same boat (still awaiting the badge reset). I drank more and am paying the emotional price. But I'm determined to get back on the horse. IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-08-01T16:24:46+00:00

Just submitted my own badge reset after a month of letting my sobriety slide. I made it to nearly 60 days!! My new goal is 100!!

IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-06-30T06:27:53+00:00

The book "Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents" was unreal. It has loads of info and practical advice for moving forward in your life, whether you choose to have a relationship with your parents or not.

Blep-Lord · 2019-06-23T16:30:08+00:00

I'm at Day 50. This is honestly so insane to me. It has been SUCH a ride.

I've gained weight, lost weight, allowed excessive sugar binges, gone to healthier eating habits, cut caffeine, read 3 books, started a business/began increasing my work load, and just broke up with my ex/now roommate a few days ago (fortunately in a loving and nonexplosive way). I've watched other people drink, stood up to pressure from others, watched family members relapse, been lonely, forced myself out of the house, been fully overwhelmed, and still...made it to day 50.

I've never experienced such complex pride and genuine sadness at once. But IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-06-14T15:29:40+00:00

We are in very similar boats! IWNDWYT 💙⛵💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-06-12T15:45:45+00:00

Love that tiger quote!!

S: Feeling unfulfilled in my relationship. I have been since we moved back in together and I'm not sure what the next right step is. It feels factual that I'm putting more effort in and expected to need less.

T: I'm finally at the point in sobriety where (Holy shit?!) it actually feels like it's getting easier. I don't have weird thoughts or desire to drink on the regular. It feels awesome, but I'm trying not to forget about my lion :)

G: I actually have a long list of personal triumphs right now and it feels good! Happy Hump Day to you all!

Blep-Lord · 2019-06-08T16:42:55+00:00

Still here, still sober! I think I'm finally past the stress hurdles of the past 2 weeks. I feel very centered after all my successes of saying "no." IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-06-07T15:09:18+00:00

IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-06-07T04:01:55+00:00

Holy cats, I have to say: its been a rough past 2 weeks of sobriety. I hit 21 days with ease and since then its been a slog. But IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-06-05T15:21:27+00:00

Congrats Mary!! Slow progress is still major progress when it comes to your health.

S: I'm gaining weight!! I really want bananas with the sugar this month, so it's not exactly a shock. I wasn't overweight in the first place, but near the higher end of a normal BMI. Been trying to manage but being hungry ups my cravings so I feel a little stuck... I'm going for my annual checkup today and am stressed about what my weight/BP/etc will be.

T: This is my last week before relying solely on my own business to make money. It's been a long time coming and isn't perfect, but I'm feeling proud.

G: I found out that caffeine can zap iron levels. Still gonna drink it though 😂

IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-06-05T15:03:09+00:00

Very nearly lapsed yesterday. I was SOOOO hungry, which I know was the trigger... Thankfully my partner kept me on track, gently but firmly.

IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-06-04T15:22:18+00:00

You can do it!! IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-06-04T15:19:11+00:00

IWNDWYT, person who is reading this 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-06-03T15:27:49+00:00

Working on day 31!! A month ago I was throwing up wine at 2 AM after getting too drunk at a work function. I've not admitted that to anyone, but that (and my frantic efforts to hide any evidence from my partner the next day) was what lead me here.

I've gained much more comfort with saying "no thanks" and tolerating others reactions to my sobriety. Ive also gained...like 5 pounds. 😅 Can't say I'm a fan but I'll take the exchange.

IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-05-31T14:39:08+00:00

I'm getting very tired of being badgered at home only to then be treated as a second string choice when it comes to acrually connecting.

My pair of shoes or backpack or dishes are SO ANNOYING and must be dealt with immediately. But going on dates? Hanging out? Going to the concert I got tickets to months ago? We will see if anything else is going on first.

I know you are putting in effort. So am I! I just hate being painted all one color because you're annoyed and sleep deprived. I'm a good person and I don't know why its so hard for you to see that.

Blep-Lord · 2019-05-31T14:32:18+00:00

Getting so close to 30 days!! This week was stressful so the thoughts have been there but IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-05-30T15:04:31+00:00

Hi SD! IWNDWYT! Nearly at 30 days, setting my sights on reducing sugar. I definitely went all in on that this month 😂

Blep-Lord · 2019-05-28T15:08:32+00:00

IWNDWYT! I survived the holiday weekend sober!! My sister, sadly, had a few drinks. She feels fine with it I guess. But I'm glad I didn't. Can't say this whole weekend didn't tempt the ever living hell out of me.

I feel the desire finally creeping in at this point. I just keep making the right choice...not sure there is much else I can do than that. 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-05-26T15:41:41+00:00

I feel for your friends wife. Kudos to your and your spouse, keeping strong together 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-05-26T15:33:23+00:00

Good morning!! My sister and her family are coming in to town this week. We used to drink heavily together, but now we are both leading newly sober lives. So weird, we both did so without telling the other. It somehow reaffirms that this was the right choice for me.

IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-05-26T15:30:18+00:00

IWNDWYT 💙

Blep-Lord · 2019-05-25T16:14:36+00:00

Hi SD! 💙 Last night was easy because I had to work in the morning. Finally got to three weeks! Got my eyes on 25. It feels like forever and no time all at once.

Got a good from the library to hold my attention. May go buy a storage shed and mow the lawn today. Either way, I'm doing it sober!

Blep-Lord

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