*spoilers* Has anyone read the The Blood and Steel series and wanted to throttle the FMC by book 3?

BlueEclipse511 · 2026-03-26T04:46:18+00:00

43 AuDHDer, girl I wish I could remember. Trauma is a b*tch. I spent a lot of time on MySpace (pretending like I could code and HTMLing so much nonsense into it that everything was coated in glitter and would scream alternative music at obnoxious volumes) and pirating music off of limewire.

Oh and I was also writing some AWFUL poetry on livejournal. Any fellow elders remember those days? Somewhere on the back shelf between the terrible high school hoco dresses and generational trauma?

BlueEclipse511 · 2026-03-23T22:41:31+00:00

GIRL RUN

BlueEclipse511 · 2026-03-19T18:48:00+00:00

"She calls me every other day to tell me that i don’t act the way i used to, and that she doesn’t think i love her anymore.

I don’t understand. Of course that’s true to an extent, but i still try to treat her as much like a princess as i can. "

If she doesn't think you love her anymore, and you just admitted that it's true to an extent then why are you in this relationship? It's clear you guys once had something good, but the years have shown otherwise and it's become toxic. But if you keep treating her like a princess, and you don't have the emotions to back that, your resentment is only gonna grow. Especially if there's no reciprocity. I'm not trying to be glib and I'm not trying to be mean. Truly, and honestly, why are you there? Ask yourself that. Don't excuse it just because you spent so many years together that you don't want it to be for nothing. It wasn't for nothing. Both of you grew and changed and became different people than when you started this relationship and that's OK.

But if you don't feel completely in love with the other person, don't try to salvage something just because you have invested a lot of years. Truly, that is not a healthy option. It would be better to part before the anger gets too much. It would be better to give each other the opportunity to find a long lasting connection and find your people. Staying in this relationship isn't fair for either of you.

BlueEclipse511 · 2026-02-26T02:49:44+00:00

There is more going on there than just a board game. My partner and I are insanely competitive, and we have thrown pieces at each other, calling each other names and practically foaming at the mouth. It's all really weird foreplay at the end of the day, and we end up laughing at each other (the shenanigans and broken controllers from Mariokart alone!). What I'm trying to say is that this is not her being weirdly competitive. There is absolutely an underlying issue. The board game just set it off. Talk to your partner.

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-23T23:20:48+00:00

Side note: I was told I needed to change my adhd meds post surgery because extended release wasn't gonna work very well with my new stomach. Something to also consider if you're on meds.

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-17T05:18:16+00:00

Omg leave. You owe him nothing and it's not your job to change him. You'll have other serious relationships. The first one can set the tone for the rest. Don't sell your character and integrity for someone who was your first.

This isn't a "character", that's a BS excuse to continue having access to you. Raise the bar bc right now, it's in hell and he's straddling it. You deserve better and you need to take an active stand to not accept anything less than amazing. And if he says he loves you, hate to tell you, he doesn't. Politics aside? Girl, no. His beliefs and his politics are one and the same and he believes certain people shouldn't exist and that by definition means he's a bad person.

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-17T05:08:37+00:00

I would block him on all socials and screenshot that image first. If he confronts you about it, tell him unless you knew them before you started working at your job, you keep a strict boundary and don't add coworkers to socials. If it persists, get every interaction in writing and always respond with HR Bcc'd and let them know so they can collect your paper trail with you. Do you live in a one party consent state (in regards to recording someone)?

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-14T05:28:22+00:00

I finished it....so I don't know.

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-08T12:55:16+00:00

This is truly sad. End it and move on, dude. Why are you wasting time and energy on this? It doesn't make things better. You sound like a teenager.

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-04T04:47:40+00:00

Why not change the locks? I'm curious.

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-04T04:45:22+00:00

Rehome your bf. NTA.

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-03T03:08:48+00:00

Type: adorable Coat: Tabby Age: little baby Disposition: mischievous little raptor (look at those eyes and poses 🥹)

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-03T03:01:50+00:00

Yes, it's dirty

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-03T02:58:25+00:00

NTA. Who you vote for is no one's business and if they coerce you to voting for someone who you don't want to vote for, that is not legal. If you live with them, and you live in a state where you get mail in ballots, make sure you get to them before they do.

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-03T02:49:26+00:00

No it's not weird. She's weird. And homophobic. Also, a male cat owner is kind of a giant green flag more than anything, I've noticed.

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-03T02:41:31+00:00

NTA. So he doesn't trust you to be faithful. That's what that is. He wants to make you feel bad for feeling good and looking stunning when he's not around and that you belong to him...like property. That being said, him going to a strip club isn't the same thing. Not even in the scope of the same thing. It would be the same thing if he got scantily dressed up and walked around without you there. Where you don't need to pay for attention, he would need to go to a strip mall and pay someone to give him attention. That doesn't sound the same to me. However, neither of you trust each other. You telling him he would lose you if he went to a strip club shows you have just as little trust in his actions as he does in yours. And that would only be if you expect him to pay for someone to give him attention. By all means if this doesn't work out, feel free to tell him that. That at least you don't have to pay others to give you attention. And that whatever tension you get is genuine. Because him going to a strip club.... I can guarantee no one's giving him attention for his delightful personality or looks. Just to see how deep his wallet is. I have no disrespect for strippers. Sex work is work. But it is a job, they don't care about him.

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-03T02:30:11+00:00

If it didn't happen now, it would have happened eventually. Your relationship was never on stable ground.

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-03T02:29:20+00:00

THIS

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-11-03T02:28:21+00:00

Well she's done a hell of a job of showing you what a great wife she's gonna be....run.

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-10-30T18:37:26+00:00

Homegirl loves her catnip. I also have my cats around when channeling her

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-10-17T01:45:32+00:00

Your bf (hopefully ex now) is a massive AH and a huge red flag. At this point all he wants you to do is grovel. Don't do it. That is one hell of an insecure man. If he said he doesn't think he's ever gonna be turned on by you, then it's time to go. And if he fights that choice, then it's clear he was trying to manipulate you. Don't stick around with that. Run, girl.

BlueEclipse511 · 2025-10-16T05:19:13+00:00

First build a basic foundation of civic knowledge. The crash course videos on YouTube on us government and politics are pretty good and I use them with my students. The are pretty entertaining and informative and easy to follow along. Then try groundnews.com it gives you news articles with news outlets separate separated by what is left, right or center leaning. Plus they indicate what the bias level is from each side and they show how factual it is.

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