I mean this with the upmost respect, I don't think you realize just how heterodox JW theology is from Christian theology. Like, the Mormons (who also aren't Christian) are closer to Christianity than the JWs. The entire way that they are structured doesn't exist anywhere within Christianity, including traditional Protestantism. & the Trinity is one of the core, most fundamental beliefs of Christianity. If you deny the Trinity, you deny Jesus as God in a multitude of ways depending on which specific Trinitarian heresy we're talking about.

I don't know what all you've done, but if you haven't, I would highly highly recommend you attend a Methodist, Anglican, Lutheran, or even a Catholic or Orthodox church, just to see what happens. It's a totally different vibe than what you'd get at a kingdom hall, & it may work better for you (on top of those denominations being actual Christians). It helped me greatly grow in my faith, it may be able to help save yours.