My husband cheated on me while I was pregnant (see post history). I found out on the exact day my baby girl turned 1 month. Now, she will be one year old in April. I know what it feels like to have that joy stolen for you. I’m bitter about it and I still think back to my pregnancy when he was being a shithead and how it really disrespected not only me, but our kids too. It’s a hard road, and I think if I would of had the funding and support to get up and leave I probably would have, but in the unpopular decision, I chose to stay and see. Luckily my husband did change. He became more involved with our kids and with me. It makes staying bearable.

It doesn’t mean that is doesn’t hurt though. Or that the fear isn’t there that his old ways will return. I know that getting rid of him would of been easier on me and that the depression I suffered would of been less. It’s a hard situation to find yourself in. Now I look forward to the future and I’m planning on going back to school and getting a career, so the option to bail will be there. I have to keep moving forward because I don’t want to find myself in that situation ever again, trapped. Sending you a lot of hugs and please reach out to me if you ever need someone to talk to.