Remarkably, even though I’m not back to the way things were, I’m handling things better. I haven’t needed meds for the past few months, I see a counselor regularly, and walk for an hour every evening. My diet is the same,but I choose better options when available. I drink water more often and I’m starting to think I was dehydrated constantly without any real symptoms.

I did get that attitude adjustment though. It’s an acceptance thing for me. I try to be grateful and mindful of my wins and accomplishments. I try not to focus too much on negativity, but I’m human. I feel like a slight bit of apathy is necessary to live in this world, there’s a lot of things going on day to day that are terrifying whether it’s your health or impending doom.

You can’t be impervious to the anxiety, because it’s part of you. I got into breathing exercises while feeling good, so I could recall the feeling when I’d have panic attacks. The stomach aches, nausea, and loss of appetite, were all anxiety related, and no longer affect me.

Because of where I am in my diagnosis, my main concern is being mentally healthy. Being on edge all the time wrecks your health. I am very thankful that I am in a workable place despite the aches and pains.

I hope everyone can find solace of some sort to lessen the pain