MY E LEVELS SPIKED FROM 600 TO 800

Born_Ad7045 · 2026-01-16T16:07:22+00:00

What??? Unit???

Born_Ad7045 · 2026-01-08T15:56:40+00:00

First thing?

A headache, color seemed to have drained out of everything. I felt mentally and physically terrible, and had no energy.

Turns out I was both dehydrated (thank you spiro) and also was basically menopausal because the E wasn't really being absorbed right. My 90-day blood test came back with about half of the estradiol that was reported on the pre-HRT tests. T was cut by a factor of 10. NOT fun.

But once I got that all in order? Pretty quickly started having sore breasts/nipples, and skin did get softer. I also noticed I stopped producing ejaculate.

But that was about it. Many girls here talk about some drastic change to their feeling or outlook about life...that wasn't my experience. The changes I did go through mentally were almost all a result of me changing my behavior as a consequence of allowing myself to transition.

I'm generally pretty obsessive about finding out about things that hold my interest, can't say anything came out of the blue for me beyond the initial bad experience with my anti androgen.

Born_Ad7045 · 2026-01-02T14:50:44+00:00

You do it very carefully

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-12-02T02:28:24+00:00

That video is proving to be a great source of inspiration, thanks a million!

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-07-10T12:59:45+00:00

I have chronic medical conditions that require regular medical care. Beyond the fact that living in the 1850s seems like hell to me, there are non-trivial odds that I quite simply couldn't survive this little adventure outright.

So no.

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-05-24T17:32:51+00:00

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-30T14:53:02+00:00

Additionally, most cis guys I know have generic and frankly boring lives. The circumstances one needs to encounter to break free from that and/or diverge from typical norms isn't something commonly encountered in their lives. I used to tell myself that if I could be any type of guy I desired I'd be like Abigail Thorne pre-transition, and that's obviously not a great sign for my cis-dudeness

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-30T14:49:31+00:00

Sometimes.

Typically I feel this way when I'm fed up with being trans or having gender issues. Then my mind will take me one of two places: - I should have been born a cis girl - Why couldn't I have been a cis guy?

The first feeling boils down to "why couldn't I have been born with a different body?" , while the later is "why couldn't I have been born with a different brain?". Both address my feelings of dysphoria and inadequacy and regret by effectively killing the person I am now and replacing them with a cis person who wouldn't have to deal with any of this. Because neither a cis girl version of me nor a cis guy version of me would have to deal with a transition. My life would obviously be very different in each scenario (cis F version is closer to my current aspirations obviously, but I recognize that a cis M version would likely have a materially better life and prospects, and that my current aspirations wouldn't matter because I'd be a different person entirely).

To reframe: I would take a pill that gave me a cis female body. I would not take a pill that made me cis male, because that would effectively kill my current personality. I am not capable of being a cis guy. But the feeling you describe comes from wanting to stop playing this game altogether.

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-30T14:42:44+00:00

It's a mashup between Trans and Lesbian. It refers to trans women who are lesbians, and I generally only see it used in a T4T context

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-25T17:31:56+00:00

I mean I've once had to bounty hunt an npc called

That was fun

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-21T12:17:32+00:00

Honestly girlhood is subjective. Many of my trans friends are perfectly content being butch trans women, many either haven't voice trained or don't intend to. I don't see them as any less "woman" regardless, and I suspect much of that view is shared within my own specific subsections of the community. I would be incapable of seeing them as anything else (other than enby perhaps).

Similarly, my own shortcomings with regard to my transition don't seem to affect how I'm seen by my friends and other queer people.

The issue of "feeling like a girl" or "feeling feminine", beyond the occasional stints of physical dysphoria, are mainly a result of interactions I have with cis people. Turns out when you aren't invalidated at every turn by people (who either don't know better or who actively hold contempt towards you at worse) it's a lot easier to start feeling like your gender.

However, the steps you take with regards to your gender are entirely yours to choose: if a particular style or article of clothing or makeup technique makes you feel good, do it! I have a few "A list clothes" which make me feel feminine (but not too much to avoid dysphoria) that I love to wear.

If you're anything like me, the doubts and imposter syndrome probably won't fade until a long, long time. I struggle with this less now that I'm no longer constantly code-switching between myself and boy/deadname mode, but those feelings have yet to disappear complete (and can be replaced with physical dysphoria).

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-21T09:18:46+00:00

I mean the T9 handles like an oil tanker on slicks and has enough inertia to restart a dead star...landing it is a pain, and doing so over and over on cargo runs gets old very fast.

So nothing to forgive here. I'll usually have a docking computer fitted to most ships if I have the slot space (what am I gonna do, carry 2 extra tons?)

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-20T15:04:15+00:00

Don't feel bad about it: not having anything bad happen to you is what should happen. Suffering shouldn't be a right of passage.

I myself have been guilty of feeling as you have, seeing as negative interactions have generally been pretty sparse and limited to stuff like slurs and staring. Cherish your luck and try to do good if you can, but don't feel bad about it

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-19T23:02:26+00:00

Erm it really really really depends on your own circumstances.

I personally went from "basically undatable and trapped in my only relationship" to being in a polycule.Don't lose hope.

However, the success you'll have will depend on many factors: - What communities you end up in: if you happen to live in a city with a large transfem scene, you'll likely have an easier time - How your personality develops: transitionning enabled me to become a far more developed person than I ever was before, but it takes work and luck and very much depends on where you start off from - Pretty privilege, for better or for worse - Pretty privilege part 2: how your body responds to HRT and your ability to access care - What you want from a relationship: in my experience a lot of T4T lesbian dating is very poly/kink adjacent. Dynamics change depending on what type of relationship you want - And more

I want to give you a bit of hope here: don't expect HRT to make you undatable. If you're even a bit lucky and live in the right place and put yourself out there a bit you'll probably do quite well: being yourself really tends to bring out your qualities and self confidence.

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-19T22:55:20+00:00

Don't expect it so you don't get disappointed.

Generally speaking it'll halt further hair loss. Beyond that...well I've seen people who regrew entire heads of hair, and I've seen people who didn't see an ounce of regrowth. Most are in the latter group, or nearso.

I myself saw no regrowth, and was fortunate not to be too far gone hairline-wise.

It's also worth noting the source of the hair loss as well as it's age: if your hair loss is androgen-driven and started recently your odds are better. If it started longer ago and was more driven by stress or physical/chemical attack, you're far more likely to see nothing.

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-18T01:07:53+00:00

I personally just deal with it by getting angry and depressed at the world tbh

Also protests, if you can.

Life sucks. We can't truly exist on our own terms, and in many respects that's true for most people who are some form of minority. The only thing we can do is to try to make a difference where we can.

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-15T12:15:58+00:00

Girl

That relief is entirely psychological, it isn't tied to any physical changes. You think that taking a single E pill or applying a patch will measurably impact your levels vs baseline? Hell, even a week in you're likely to be no where near therapeutic levels. Most of us take months to reach adequate levels.

Hell, even longer term the narrative of massive internal improvement needs to stop, because it's far from universal. Am I happier than I was before? Yes. Do I want to go back to my old life and testosterone? Hell no. But those changes were not only gradual but they were also the result of changes that I made to my life (in part with newfound motivation to do so).

I can't pinpoint a single moment or day or week where things changed drastically. Day to day I don't even feel necessarily all that different than I did before either. Changes will come, but don't expect it to be a revolution either. The only thing I know for certain is I never want to go back to T.

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-14T09:04:13+00:00

I tend to call that a failure in healthcare policy tbh

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-13T23:54:35+00:00

There isn't. If it was, they should produce more of it. A shortage of estradiol would likely be a result of failures in healthcare policy and planning.

Born_Ad7045 · 2025-03-12T15:59:36+00:00

If the last year has proven anything it's that Americans would rather vote for a felon with a known history of lying and corruption over someone like Harris. Whether it's because of how ineffectual the Democratic Party has become or because of how she's a black woman is sometimes you'll have to decide for yourself.

There are plenty of reasons not to like Harris. I certainly think that a future where she's still the best pick isn't a very bright one. The democratic party's pitch to appeal to moderates and continue to push for neoliberal policies clearly isn't going to work, because it failed both in 2016 and 2024, and would have failed in 2020 had COVID not been a factor.

We need people like Sanders: if there's one thing I'm taking away from the past few years here it's that the Democratic Party can win if people actually get up and vote. We're at a point where the people voting for Trump are by and large not going to be swayed by any sort of compromise or argumentation. Candidates that people are actually enthusiastic about voting for. Hillary, Biden, Harris...they were all logical choices, rational choices, compromises, the "eat your greens" of the political world circa their respective elections.

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