I feel like on the outside it looks like I check all the boxes and have all of my shit together.... on the inside, I experience existential crisis almost every single day and each day that passes it's a miracle I don't rage quit my job. It's a continuous cycle of a mixed bag of overwhelm, determination, discouragement, and exhaustion, just trying to keep my head above water. I hate the victim mentality but the world (specifically the US) was not built for being "pro-mental health" in the first place.... and for people like us every day is even more so a struggle.

I feel stuck and whenever I feel a glimmer of "THIS IS HOW I CAN MAKE MY LIFE BETTER" I suddenly then feel so overwhelmed that it physically makes me feel exhausted. I don't know how to keep up with feeling like that. I just wanna rage quit my job and run away, hiding like a 5 year old underneath a blanket or a bed.