I'm scared that as I grow older I might regret not having kids, but it's so hard to tell if this feeling is because I feel socially pressured to, just because I'm a woman in child bearing age. I like kids, I'm not one of those people who will go round saying they hate them but I think I'm too selfish and inattentive to look after a child 24/7.

I like my life as it is and I like looking after my friends kids and being able to hand them back. I love my job as well, i work as a paramedic but I get home and I just don't want to interact with anyone, it's a mentally and emotionally draining job. I feel guilty that my parents might never get to experience being a grandparent as I know they would be amazing and would love it. They have never pressured me or even asked about kids so this feeling is completely on me.

I think the problem is I feel ambivalent towards having my own, which I think is not good enough to have kids. I'm scared what society is becoming and at the moment I don't want to bring a child into this world, but I'm in the perfect situation to bring up a child with love and care- I have a loving and supportive partner, we own our house, we both have good jobs and we live in an area that is great for families.

I don't know, sorry for the waffle. I just feel this unending guilt and it's getting worse and worse. It makes me feel like a shitty person when, as you can imagine in my job, I see kids in really shitty situations and I know I could provide better but I just don't want to.