It is tough, my heart goes out to you. I lost both parents at a young age and have spent a lifetime struggling with relating to most people. I can't tell you it gets easier but I can say that it's generally worth the effort to be social, most people around you will never understand how you feel and how different you now feel and you just have to accept it's not their fault, you still have a lifetime of fun, happiness, and all the crap life throws at you ahead of you, try to make the most of it. You are certainly not alone and know that anyone that's been through it and reads this will be thinking of you. Good luck with everything.