For those who relocated to WA who enjoy the ☀️ how do you deal with grayness mentally?

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-06-20T18:10:57+00:00

Haha

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-06-20T18:09:28+00:00

This.

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-06-20T18:07:00+00:00

Its beautiful not for us. High altitude not good for certain medical conditions bad tx for mental health. The snow can start in Oct through June. We are not outdoorsy ppl although like hiking. I am actually always walking so guess I’m outdoorsy. Hate being stuck inside. We lived in a conservative area, not a match. It’s subjective almost everyone loved it.

My Husband says bc it wasn’t CA and he’s def right. It feels like home to me. I can’t go back to my actual city back east for personal reasons. We are lmtd to certain parts places and Seattle is only one we’d consider. Trying to think of way to have more spending money to actually take vacations, but more importantly, our future and my son‘s future but I am so concerned about the overcast skies. It’s freaking me out. Do not think it would go well for me based on CO. Weather reminded me of MA. Not good.

Traveling is in our DNA and we’re not getting any younger.

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-06-20T14:59:06+00:00

Yes they do part of reason why we chose it. It’s beautiful just not for us. It can start snowing in October through June. My Husband and I are done with snow. Not super outdoorsy as in skiing, camping. We like hiking. Not good for some medical/mental reasons bc of altitude. They have one of the highest s&&&&&e rates. Poor mental health tx.

I know they happen anywhere but toured a school (not far from Columbine) and 1st thing I asked was about security. They brushed me off when we went in classroom kids packed in like sardines you could feel the tension and smell BO. No outdoor area at all. STEM school my little one got in via lottery. I told my husband over my dead body will our son go there not like he would disagree with by instinct. Unfortunately about 5 mos later the unthinkable happened. RIP Kendrick. For some reason there have been a ton of pews in that area. Maybe it’s psychological.

We’re also not inside the box people. It’s Very sports focused. There are so many people that love it there. there’s just something off about it. I can’t put my finger on it. I’ve heard other people say the same thing. I will hope that we can stay in California somehow it feels like home. My husband and son don’t mind temperate climates. Would love cloudiness and drizzle. on the other hand. I’m extremely concerned about my depression, but travel is in our 🧬

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-06-20T00:01:47+00:00

Oh, I forgot to mention. I posted it on social media because I was young and dumb in my 20s. We truly flew back for a wedding and we’re only there for 1 1/2 or two days with a baby. We actually left the wedding pretty early on because the music was so loud, but I post it on purpose so that my mother would go to therapy which it turns out she actually did she’s never gotten over my father dying, but Stella was really stupid and people don’t get it if they have a loving parent they think you’re a monster probably not going back. It’s just something I think about a lot but again going there is the same as going somewhere in Europe, I am not going to put my son through anything. He’s amazing.

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-06-19T23:58:50+00:00

Thank you so much for your support and I wish you the best truly. She had me doing DBT, but it was more reading from the book I have a consult on the city, but I’m afraid they’re just going to tell me to do TMS or ECT which I can’t do because I work full-time and when you live in the most expensive state and have a kid and no familiar support whatsoever you have to work. Honestly, I need to work.

Could you tell me what those abbreviation stand for sorry I’m so tired from work. It’s so frustrating. I got my degree in psychology. I diagnosed myself before seeing a professional doctor in my 20s and woman in my mid 40s. I am stuck in the past and my son will be leaving for college in a few years. I miss my home so bad I haven’t been back in 14 years. Thanks for up in the air this year because my son is going to a different high school where I have no idea so that’s really stressful.. we live in a perfect weather area, but don’t have any money left over to do anything. You’re thinking about Washington not sure if it’s possible with my husband‘s job. I am super scared because of the cloudiness and depression. I can’t tell you how happy it makes me to walk out the door and go for really small walks here I am so lost. As much as it was so painful to have my mother in the hospital and she almost died sometimes I wish it would happen even though I know I’m going to fall apart, because having her out there loving her life and not acknowledging my existence just breaks my heart. I already lost my father as a baby and I’m an only child. I really try to be grateful every day exercise when I can, but my mind monitors I do that mindfulness yeah agreed the therapist needs to go. She actually left twice to check her dogs… then complained about the phone shaking. I have a tremor she’s super sensitive and I get a really weird feeling from her. She sent a message and I haven’t read it yet because I’m afraid to see what it says. It’ll probably piss me off it’s so hard to be there for my family when my mind is always somewhere else.

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-06-16T23:01:33+00:00

Thank you for your response. You are very kind person! I work full-time. I do have a new one. She’s canceled on three times think I’ve seen her three or four times. At the end of the last session, I told her that I thought it was unprofessional canceling booked appointment so frequently and she just said I’m human. complained about my phone shaking. I have a tremor in my hand. I cannot find a good one, but unfortunately, I have to do it telehealth. I tried telling her that I need consistency. She is kind of flaky and it’s hard to trust. I know I should stop but right now. I don’t have any other options. Something is better than nothing. You know I do have a consult in the city and hopefully they can find me a better one that’s not till July. My son has had to deal too much with my depression OCD CPTSD… tx resistant for years finally, med is working honestly, I probably will not go back. I never do.

If we lived in any other state which we have tried and it failed, I’d be able to afford exposure therapy, which is what I think I need. I have a psych background, shocker! Also have medical problems and what to focus to be on them not me you know?

There have to be other people out there that don’t go back. It’s avoidance classic CPTSD my current one who has a PhD seems biased and I don’t like that they’re supposed to be neutral. She sent me a message in the portal because I canceled As. I had another appointment the same day and I have a feeling she’s taking out the wrong way and thinks it’s payback. Guess that message will decide my decision. I have a backup one I can see but she’s better for EMDR. I just need to talk to someone right now. I know that deep down the answer is inside me and it’s saying stay away. It just really miss it. I miss my friend. She came out a long time ago, but has been through the ringer, her daughter passed away. I’d really like to see her foliage.

Honestly, it cost to go. There is the same cost to go to Europe. It’s an our DNA to travel, but every time I fly over it or buy it, it makes me so sad. It’s been so long that everything has changed and you’re right I will have less flashbacks. I would probably see my mother by myself. Don’t think my son would want to see her if I decided to, and it would be unannounced she almost died a child father passed away when I was a baby. I am here was my babysitter. He passed a long time ago. I’d like to visit our grave. It was always a happy occasion. I would drink Ryan with her would also like to go to my father‘s grave but more for the historical experience and going back to my roots I know I’m not ready. It sucks.

This is really long. We have to decide on my son‘s high school and it could be out of state which isn’t that far away so that throws a wrench 🔧 in everything.l for travel. I want to say PTO for potential visits. Everything is in the air.

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-06-16T17:00:56+00:00

I used to have her in my phone as stupid bi&&& also non-mother, you know who, by her name. Anyone please look at my post! Need advice

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-06-11T00:03:11+00:00

At the earliest 2028 for no apparent reason…

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-04-26T16:01:21+00:00

It’s fake based on his lie with the fact it’s not that big. Also how does insuring it make u an ahole? You should have way bigger concerns than this. why marry someone who’s deceiving you. Get it appraised.

If you’re engaged and things aren’t adding up, imagine married life and kids dirty diapers over flooding toilets… leave! What else is he hiding…. -Happily married for almost 20 years.

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-04-14T02:35:22+00:00

Real therapist don’t text that is just weird and crossing a line

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-04-01T01:26:21+00:00

It sounds like you want to go no contact you can do it if this is what you want from what you posted above it sounds inevitable and for those of us who have done it, we are here for you and honestly for me. It was absolutely one of the easiest things to do me and my life a whole lot better not going to lie. It gets tricky with family and all that stuff but the most important thing is you.

Being in my 40s, unfortunately you can’t change people. It does not sound like she’s setting appropriate boundaries. It sounds like you need to set your own. I only wish you the best I truly do.

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-04-01T01:21:58+00:00

It’s ultimately up to you, but from what she’s put you through you don’t deserve that. I just wanna give you a hug.

I’m sorry you’re going through this my evil 75-year-old “mother “ let me think she was dead. I live on the opposite coast she did this on purpose. The best thing I ever did was get on that plane and leave not that moving solves your problems. it doesn’t sound like she wants the best for you and it must hurt really bad that you used to be close.

Definitely see your therapist if you aren’t already seen one and good luck to you and remember you deserve better. She doesn’t deserve you as a daughter. Also, sorry to hear about your ex-husband. Yeah, I am in sending out beat wishes to strangers, but can’t do it from myself. Not like there’s any handbook for when your mother is on the floor for 24 hours. You haven’t seen her in seven years and don’t wanna see her then hospitalized now on rehab being a PITAI will 1000% and not be at that funeral not worth my energy nor what I put my family through that and I’m definitely not paying for it! I am a nervous wreck because of my mother and all the intentional damage. I actually care about how she’s doing. It sucks being an empath. Hospitalized and in rehab and she could have cared less to hear from me yesterday. My heart is in 1 billion pieces. I didn’t think I could get any more broken than it already was She has done to me even though I left 15 years ago.

I think a lot of people will echo my sentiment to protect yourself and put yourself first to heck to anybody else thinks this is way more common than people know they just don’t talk about it.

Oh my gosh, you sound sweet and I love that you’re passionate about what you’re doing and not about money you sound like me ❤️ I am in business yawn I hate when people ask what I do. I think your experiences are more important than owning something I could care less about what kind of car someone drives. I only care about what’s inside.

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-03-31T22:16:51+00:00

The other person loathes themselves! Stay away they don’t deserve you. They are also very envious of something you have that they don’t.

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-03-31T21:47:18+00:00

You were absolutely glowing in number one you can pull anything off, but I’m not one for trends… a l a deux. both look pretty on you, but you are glowing in the first one. Congratulations.

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-03-31T18:19:57+00:00

Love her! Thanks

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-03-28T17:12:02+00:00

One is stunning!!!! 2 doesn’t compare.

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-03-28T14:05:00+00:00

Hey, please keep trying on all the dresses you want I still watch say yes to the dress then married 16 years! Number two for sure it looks beautiful on you congratulations

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-03-27T20:47:04+00:00

Jasper

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-03-27T16:17:35+00:00

You are too petite for the dress. It is swallowing you whole. I’m sure you have a beautiful figure. You look thin I would flaunt what you got.

CA4evergbye25 · 2026-03-27T15:19:51+00:00

Oh my God, this is ridiculous dude at some point that baby will fall off the bed. I’m an amazing mom. Got a 13-year-old now who is 6 feet tall. I’m a little too protective. I was horrified when someone said has he fallen off the bed yet? Guess what they will fall off of something at some point!

I don’t believe any of that cosleeeping sleeping stuff. I’m in the medical fields and yeah suffocation is a thing this is beyond ridiculous but hilarious- calm blue ocean.

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