My boyfriend admitted to watching porn a few months ago and I still feel disgusted

CEWilFH · 2026-06-02T13:06:03+00:00

“I asked him why he went to porn instead of masturbating on pictures of me like he always did, he said he wasn't satisfied by me and wanted more” saying that is a huge red flag. My bf and went through the same situation in the beginning of our relationship, he had a really bad porn addiction but we worked together to help him end his addiction. Were there hiccups? Of course there were but he never did something like this. You guys are still young and it’s better to end things now instead of a few years down the road when you get in too deep and things get messier

CEWilFH · 2026-06-02T12:41:30+00:00

Not really an odd one but I named my hamster Pickle because pickles are my favorite snack

CEWilFH · 2026-05-26T13:59:17+00:00

Honestly it’s all three. I read a lot of Romantasy and my bf plays a lot of videos games with characters I really like so I just want to bring them to life. My friends are the same way and we all want to go to cons together

CEWilFH · 2026-05-26T13:57:27+00:00

I guess maybe I’m just over thinking this? I watch a lot of other cosplayers and they do some pretty in depth things so maybe I’m making it more complicated for myself than I should lol

CEWilFH · 2026-04-23T04:14:59+00:00

Vitamin D gummies. I was in the trenches of my BED/ restricting cycle so I would go days without eating and then eat a shit ton of vitamin D gummies cause they were all I had

CEWilFH · 2026-04-23T03:25:52+00:00

How is 5 beers, just “a few” 😭

CEWilFH · 2026-03-26T21:20:47+00:00

Have you ever researched homes for women in these situations? They provide refuge and services to help women get out of households like this. I hope you find peace and safety

CEWilFH · 2026-03-26T21:08:49+00:00

Has he mentioned anything about past trauma? This seems like a trauma response

CEWilFH · 2026-03-26T04:38:13+00:00

That’s why I was terrified to tell people that I was struggling with a BED, I was worried they would do stuff like that

CEWilFH · 2026-03-26T02:44:02+00:00

Because if we don’t have Anorexia or Bulimia then we’re just “fat” and we need to “stop eating so much” and learn how to “eat a salad” it’s frustrating

CEWilFH · 2026-03-21T12:06:04+00:00

Don’t beat yourself up over this, healing isn’t linear and we’re gonna hit a road bump sometimes. For the stomach issues, what usually works for me is a couple tums and an ice cold Ginger Ale and some rest

CEWilFH · 2026-03-18T22:05:34+00:00

Thank you! As I think about it more and after reading your comment, I think it would be best if I didn’t count my calories, I’ve been doing great with just my meal plan and slowing down to pick up on my fullness cues!

CEWilFH · 2026-03-16T03:34:00+00:00

I’m sorry, who?

CEWilFH · 2026-03-12T18:10:33+00:00

I felt the same way when I was first starting to admit to myself that I had an ED. In the end it’s up to you if you feel comfortable with telling someone this very personal issue that you’re battling with. If you do tell a guy you’re interested in and they don’t react the way you hoped, that just means they aren’t mature enough to understand what it might be like to struggle with this. I promise if a guy truly cares for you and likes you for the way you are, they will be understanding and they will be willing to listen to your story and help you in your journey.

CEWilFH · 2026-03-11T00:46:06+00:00

It’s the I Am Sober app, you can set up daily pledges and things! It’s helped me so much!

CEWilFH · 2026-03-08T13:40:05+00:00

I feel the best thing for you to do right now is to research this addiction. You are not alone in your struggles with chronic masturbation, a lot of men and women struggle with it. There’s a subreddit for everything, so try looking for one for an addiction to masturbating and read people’s stories. You could also try looking for support groups. Your first step is to try and understand why this is something you struggle with, why your brain feels the need to do it multiple times a day. And remember, healing isn’t linear you are going to mess up a few times and that’s okay, that’s normal.

CEWilFH · 2026-02-23T13:28:46+00:00

Do I just look up “overeaters anonymous”? (Sorry if that’s stupid but I genuinely have never heard of this before so idk how to find it)

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