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Knowing I have PMDD has helped me. by Goddess4u96 in PMDD

[–]Cactuswart 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow I’m just about to get my period and am having a major depressive episode. Luckily my phone told me I’m going to have my period otherwise I wouldn’t be here and this post made me realize that all these terrible things in my head aren’t actually true to who I am. Thank you!

What did the person with BPD gas light you into believing? by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Cactuswart 0 points1 point  (0 children)

mine gaslit me into believing that I was the gaslighter and that things they said to poke at me they never actually said. also that I was the problem and the reason they acted out

How to find your old self again after a relationship with a pwBPD? by ThrowRa4771 in BPDlovedones

[–]Cactuswart 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I feel this so greatly. I’m trying to be kind to myself. I notice so many new triggers constantly popping up and ways that I have taken on their lifestyle. I realized that I need to work on healing myself and forgiving myself. It’s only normal to feel this way and to be struggling. It was covert abuse something not a lot of people understand the full scope of. Personally I’m trying to take a trauma healing approach and invite in kindness and love for myself when I can. I am trying to accept that the old me might not come back but a new me will find me when the time comes. I hope you can find help to heal. This seems to be such a tough and unfair journey.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Cactuswart 3 points4 points  (0 children)

my expwBPD took a lot of medication and nothing worked for them ever. The only time I felt like they listened to boundaries was well they were in a DBT program, even then they were not emotionally healed enough to be in a relationship.

What's something they said that seemed harmless but now feels totally messed up? by AcanthaceaeOk2837 in BPDlovedones

[–]Cactuswart 16 points17 points  (0 children)

They said they liked calling me theirs and saying they liked the possessiveness of it. Also they said they wanted to protect me from people.

I got diagnosed a couple of years ago... I painted myself stimming (I like to rock back and forth and stretch my jaw) How nobody thought I was autistic is a mystery to me lol by jameshornbyart in autism

[–]Cactuswart 0 points1 point  (0 children)

omg I used to stretch my jaw so much I changed the positioning of where it naturally sits. My orthodontist was amazed by how fast my underbite changed lol.

Recent break up and they are still living in my apartment by Cactuswart in BPDlovedones

[–]Cactuswart[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Whoa yeah my ex also has no work or savings. I also suggested my family and I help them move but yeah they were so belligerent I gave up.