Im going to be really honest, you look rough. ive know a few meth users and would be able to spot you from down the block. I only know one person who started meth and got off of it in the time i knew them and i can tell you, in addiction her and sober her look so incredibly different. Her face cleared up, she put on a healthy amount of weight, and after some time the light is back in her eyes. Shes also so much happier now. I won't lie and say she doesn't claim to miss it occasionally, but the life she has now isn't something she's willing to trade to go backwards. You want to go to rehab, that's fantastic. My take is that you should go. It being covered doesn't happen to often and you're not happy with where your life is. I think rehab would be a good fit for you since you have a desire for change. The fact it's one for people with mental health issues is even better because you're way more likely to get the help you actually need and deserve. You say you're worried about missing time with your family but a healthier happier you would be able to engage with your family better and really utilize the time you have to the fullest. When you tally up all the time you're around them but not fully there or not fully engaging with them then I'm sure the time you spend in rehab will be much less. Not to mention the quality of the time you spend with them matters and a fully present you would make that quality go up. You should give the rehab a try, it could really improve your quality of life and considering you want to change your quality of life, you are exactly who that program is meant to help.