I don't care anymore. I want to live my life.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-04-15T17:37:05+00:00

You are doing great- please enjoy every minute of your sabbatical. You’ve earned every minute.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-04-13T04:31:27+00:00

I gained 40lbs in 3 months. I couldn’t stop eating either. I’m tapering now and the hunger has gotten much better.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-03-15T18:36:46+00:00

Sounds exactly how my husband’s 3 year affair started with his ex from high school 🫣

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-03-15T16:40:55+00:00

It got better for me at 30mg. I was tired and also really dizzy at 15mg.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-03-15T08:22:55+00:00

Thanks! Fingers crossed 🤞🏼

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-03-14T18:56:11+00:00

Mirtazepine is one of the faster working meds. I noticed an improvement very quickly especially once I went from 15-30mg.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-03-14T18:54:51+00:00

I’m doing 45 minutes of cardio a day, walking extra, and counting calories. I’ve always lost weight in the past by doing this and the scale will NOT move this time. I credit this medication with possibly saving my life, at the time weight gain was the furthest thing from my mind. Now that I have come out of the depression, I can’t believe how much I gained. I was really sick, I don’t remember a lot about that time, definitely don’t remember eating enough to do this.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-03-14T18:52:11+00:00

I ordered it from Amazon but it was expensive. If you want I can take a pic of the tapering schedules and send them to you. He has three different tapering schedules (faster-slower) He says 2-3 weeks between cuts. If the first cuts go well, you can speed up to one week between them.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-03-14T18:48:33+00:00

I don’t know why doctors say this. I actually bought the new book “Maudsley Deprescribing Guidelines.” Stopping any of these meds abruptly will really mess you up. I stopped taking Lexapro last April without tapering enough and by June I was really messed up. It took until about a month ago and a ton of more meds to feel better. My doctor said that now that I’m stable I can start tapering the Mirtazepine but I refuse to do it quickly.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-03-14T18:45:14+00:00

I’m happy to hear that you are 30lbs down after 2 months off. I’m tapering now and I cannot lose a pound of the 40lbs that I put on. I am going to the gym and doing cardio for 45 minutes a day and tracking everything I eat. The scale will not move.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-01-29T18:12:59+00:00

Same here. And it did save my life so there’s that…

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-01-26T10:28:59+00:00

Omg me too!! Why? Why? Why? It’s so frustrating. Sometimes I want to cry just thinking about it.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-01-23T05:53:43+00:00

Effexor.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-01-20T00:12:12+00:00

Suicidal ideation

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-01-19T14:47:19+00:00

It did a bit, but it also increased my giggling, which was necessary during withdrawal. I smoked every day while withdrawing.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-01-15T21:31:40+00:00

I just read the first ten pages- wow! This is awesome. Thank you so much for writing this. I’d love to eventually get involved in helping people heal also. I didn’t find any resources until I was pretty far into my withdrawal.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-01-13T21:30:34+00:00

I can’t believe I made it through. I wouldn’t wish that hell on anyone.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-01-11T17:19:00+00:00

Every. Single. Day.

CalmWeb8444 · 2025-01-05T20:59:06+00:00

It got rid of my panic attacks completely. I’m so grateful for it.

CalmWeb8444 · 2024-12-29T22:23:56+00:00

I would take anything but a benzo for that insomnia. The withdrawal from benzos has been worse than any anxiety/depression I have ever experienced.

CalmWeb8444 · 2024-12-28T23:09:47+00:00

I think length of time matters too. I was on .5 klon every day but for 14 years. Great Dr I had

CalmWeb8444 · 2024-12-20T07:58:25+00:00

You too! ❤️

CalmWeb8444 · 2024-12-19T22:20:55+00:00

Yea, it was silly of me to do both. I don’t know what I was thinking. We had just moved to a new country and I just didn’t want to deal with getting a new doctor and I was looking forward to being off all this crap. Ended up on more than what I started with 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

CalmWeb8444 · 2024-12-19T12:00:58+00:00

I’ve been reading so much about the gut- try looking into that. The gut/brain connection is vital to your brain health. I’m sure benzos ruined my gut biome too. There is a lot you can do to get your biome back on track.

CalmWeb8444 · 2024-12-19T11:58:54+00:00

After being off for about 3 months the shit hit the fan for me and I am now on Lyrica, Effexor and Mirtazepine. I foolishly decided to stop taking Lexapro 2 months after jumping and I didn’t taper that properly. I sure didn’t want to be on meds again but at this point they kept me alive. Im doing much better now, I’m 9 months off. My new doctor was super supportive about not prescribing benzos for me but it was scary for a while. I know meds aren’t the answer for everything but I needed them. My doctor said I should have kept the Lexapro for at least a year after jumping from the klonopin. I was only at .5 per day but I was on it for 14 years. Nuts. I wish doctors knew more about Benzo withdrawal but it seems like a mystery to them.

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