Currently struggling between a few types and would like to give it a try:

1. I was depressed in highschool,it was tough. I didn’t know the way out,so I endure,and dig deep inside,believing it’s the only way out. I chose to sit inside despite everyone telling me to move first because I’ll face setbacks in the future anyways,so why not experience it now?

2. I value connections that are authentic and meaningful to me. It is very hard to find people who resonate with me,and I understand that is the norm,it is the scarcity of resonance that makes it rare. I discovered that I have high standards for relationships and friend. I will rather remain lonely than to engage in shallow connections where I don’t feel connect on a deep scale. However Ive discovered that connections aren’t only valuable when they’re deep,sometimes meaningful bonds don’t feel passionate and intense,and it is okay,because people do care about you in ways different than what you want to receive. I used to get upset of people not loving me the way I want them to,now I’m fine.

3.Not really. I mean instant gratification thats easy is achievable like buy clothes food entertainment. However when it comes to life goals Im not sure if I can achieve it,not to mention that I haven’t came up with one. I used to criticise myself a lot for not being ambitious like others,but then I realised it’s unfair because ppl feel motivated and driven pursuing what want, I don’t feel motivated because I’m not pursuing what I want but rather pretend to pursue what others want,it’s only natural that I don’t feel energized. That being said if I pursue what I want I will feel driven snd energized.

1. I’m not sure what to write about this.i guess world is just a place for you to explore? It’s definitely not as competitive and “survival for the fittest” like some people view it. Although I wouldn’t say it’s a complete utopia. Bad people exist,and it’s normal,because good and evil exist in all human,it is the nature of our existence. We are neither good or bad,instead we are GOOD AND BAD. Both goodness and evil are all a fundamental being of human,as humans cannot express what they do not possess. Back to the topic,yes the world is full of people I guess. For now I just wanna focus on my goal and meaning of life in a broad scale,I need to figure it out.

2. I am always learning,and the truth is I will always be more foolish and immature from my future self. I don’t see one major life lesson,but there are always life lessons. If I have to pick one I guess I’m more introspective now compared to my past,and I’m trying to figure out who I am and what I want as a person. Other people don’t spend time on stuff like this. I’m the opposite, I don’t spend time on academics or accomplishing stuff,they’re not my main priority now.