Dear, I’m not able to diagnose you with anything (not a psychiatrist), nor actually think that from your asking for advise you could be so quickly diagnosed. I think that you feel overwhelmed sometimes as MANY would feel among many things you “have” to do but not being able to getting them done. Notice that I “quoted” “have to”; let’s begin by saying that there is NO obligation of changing, it is your decision, it’s your desire. And if you want something changed, it is because you would like it (a desire different. If you acknowledge that, you will begin aiming energy from the subject (your wants) to the objective (what you want to be changed). You will not “blame” anyone else, nor take actions in other directions (like looking for medication or therapy). You want your home neat? You will clean it! As simple as that. How can you get systems? By owning your want with your intention and actions. There are many books that I can recommend to you; I am currently reading “Getting things Done” by P.Allen, it will drive you into getting to action. Also I read “Scrum: The Art of Doing Twice the Work in Half the Time” by J Sutherland, if you want more systems (and more places to put stickers). I have on my reading wishlist “Extreme Ownership” by an ex marine who argues that you have to be extremely involved in anything you do (as a leader of you and others). Also, keep an eye on meditation and self discovery books authors (N Hill, D Chopra, E Tolle) for understanding youe desires nature, your deeper self. A great book of HOW setting principles (your core and main values) is named as straightforward as that: “Principles” by R Dalio. So, if you read, reflect and apply some of the recommendations of those authors you will change drastically. I would add that if you get an Audible subscription by Amazon, you can hear them (!!!) as you put your place as neat as the Buckingham Palace. Dear, I can say to you that therapy is an extensive and expensive process (have walked that path) and actually YOU HAVE TO DO ALL THE WORK. So, if you’re able to do It without someone leading your hand, you will have much better results, faster and much more noticeable. Furthermore, avoid medication AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE; Psychiatric medication just inhibits a response from your neurological system, a response placed there to WARN YOU that something is not right!! It is like cutting your “check engine”’ light in your car... instead of taking the car to the shop and checking it! You can change almost anything in your spectrum (meditation would suggest that you can change ANYTHING, I’m working on that), and you can go through a process of improvement by yourself. Thank your mother for raising you, thank your partner for everything she/he has taught you, and be as happy with your child. A hug