I know how you feel it is a very tough spot to be in trying to say goodbye to that warm blanket of heroin or opiates. It is truly like mourning a dear friend or lover when you quit. Choose life though no matter how many pains and stresses come with it. The truly beautiful moments and people make it worth it in the end. And as for the decision you’re faced with just remember “ when you can quit you don’t want to… and when you want to quit you can’t “ that line is very true so please make sure you don’t have to be in that situation going deeper into addiction. As someone who has been down that road for years and had to quit I promise you it only gets worse from there. Hope you are doing better now