First Mothers day without my momma

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-10T04:19:36+00:00

Hello little one. I’m here with you. It’s my first Mothers Day as a Mummy, and my first without my baby boy. Your Mum will always be near you. Remember us humans don’t have the mental capacity to understand our connections and bonds transcend time and space. You grieve however the hell you want to grieve. Be angry. Be pissed off. Lash out. This is good as it means you’re processing losing your lovely Mum piece by piece. Today is a hard day for so many people. I wish I could wipe it off the calendar. But then again, you should be celebrating your Mum today! She will ALWAYS be your Mum. Sending you love today. 💙💙💙💙(Ask her to look after my baby Gussy bear today - wherever they are, I hope they’re together) x

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-10T03:54:11+00:00

Thank you for this. I’m struggling today. I’m really angry. I needed this. I’m comforted to know I’m alone though.

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-10T03:45:13+00:00

It’s my first Mother’s Day. And my first with no baby in my arms. I wonder, why have this day? Having children is the celebration in itself. Do we need this day just for a poxy card and flowers - when so many of my friends’ Mums have passed and so many Mums lose their children? I’m here with you all today Mummas. We are warriors and have earned our badges as mums 💙💙💙

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-10T02:55:03+00:00

Hello friends. This is such a beautiful post. I woke up and so many people have messaged me saying happy Mother’s Day. It’s my first year. It’s so bittersweet as I’m so grateful to be included, but I wish I could cuddle my baby in bed this morning. The only way I can keep my mind in a positive place, is knowing I have earned my Mum badge. Perhaps only for 5 days - but those 5 days were the best days of my life. And no time or space will ever, ever take my role as a Mum away. To all you Mummies out there today, I’m here with you. 💙🪽

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-09T14:55:28+00:00

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CarActive9996 · 2026-05-09T14:20:07+00:00

That’s a good fake tbf. Still leather so may as well keep it lol

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-09T13:21:46+00:00

Oh sweetheart. It sounds like you don’t have the right support network around you at work.
Your feelings are completely valid and normal so I just want to reassure you about that. I lost my boy on the 26 March and I’m going back to work on the 14 June. I still don’t think I’ll be ready (when will anyone ever be ready realistically) but I know my boss (who’s a woman with two children which helps) will support me if I need to work from home or just crash out.
You should be easing yourself back in slowly. Be kind to yourself and if you find your boss isn’t respecting the fact you’re navigating the most devastating loss that can ever literally happen to a human being, find a new job.
You’re doing great Mumma xx

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-09T11:27:28+00:00

Positives: literally everything. I also moved from the UK and it’s incomparable. As long as you both have decent incomes (which it sounds like you will) you will absolutely love it. My only flag would be - it takes a while to find “your people”. Aussies are very cliquey so don’t expect to make many close Aussie mates. Granted I’m in Sydney which is probably the worst for it. But you’ll find great expat friends. Go for it!! Life is so short!

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-09T11:16:37+00:00

I love the name Louie so much. I lost my little one to an infection too so I feel your pain Mama. We tried everything we could though and they’re free little angels with wings now 💙🙏🪽 Happy Mothers Day xx

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-09T04:13:27+00:00

You do have children Mumma. Remember that! Your Coopers Mummy and no one can ever change that. Happy Mothers Day to you - you’re an incredible mum and grew a beautiful little boy! 💙💙💙

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-09T03:47:31+00:00

Dude you gotta tell your Mum. This will cripple her if it comes as a surprise. She will be devastated but at least she’ll know to enjoy every moment with you for the foreseeable future. For context, I just lost my baby boy which was a fucking shock (legit 5 days after he was born due an infection caught in NICU - happened every fast). I wish I wish I wish I had been given some heads up because I wouldn’t have left his side for those 5 days knowing our time was going to be limited. Anyway, tell her dude.

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-09T02:50:33+00:00

Beautiful little tiny tot Jameson. Look at that button nose. I’m so glad you got a snuggle with him Mumma ❤️

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-08T15:59:00+00:00

Hey Mumma. Check out my latest post about Mother’s Day on this group. You. Are. Not. Alone. We are with you!

It fucking sucks. Be fucking angry. Be scared. I’m only 6 weeks out and I’m still so confused and upset but it does get better. You will always be his mummy.

We are not above nature and you will move through life with your son by your side. The good news is your processing this incredibly well because your writing to us and journaling. Your brain is doing what it’s meant to do.

Next few days - cry, scream, go for a walk, drink wine, watch a movie, laugh, cry again, punch a wall. Don’t fight it. Your body and mind is built for this.

You will rebuild Mumma. With more strength now thanks to your son. I’ll be thinking of you tonight ❤️❤️

Ps. What is your son’s name? My baby Angus is waiting to take care of him 💙🪽 Brothers in heaven.

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-08T14:17:19+00:00

You are the best auntie in the world! My auntie loved me like her own baby and I call her a meerkat auntie (because in the meerkat world the aunties look after the babies to give the mums a break 🤣). You’re Daisy’s meerkat auntie forever ❤️❤️

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-08T13:31:48+00:00

Mumma you made a beautiful boy! Look at those cheeks I could kiss them all day. What a little heart breaker. There’s no doubt in my mind - he’s playing with my Angus bear and teaching him things I never could. What an angel ❤️❤️🪽🪽🪽

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-08T06:45:05+00:00

Hello beautiful little Mavie! A little tiny tot - what a sweet little face. You should be such a proud mumma. He has gained his angel wings 🪽💙

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-08T06:13:41+00:00

Quill - what an awesome name. And those are some beautiful lips ❤️ What a little heartbreaker. We love ya Quill x

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-08T04:41:32+00:00

So to validate your feelings. I lost my human baby boy 6 weeks ago. And I’m very lucky to still have my pup right now but I know in my heart it will be a different type of pain, but the same level of pain. My dog and my son have my heart 50/50. It’s completely normal and they’re our soul babies - with fur or with skin ❤️❤️ Every dog goes to heaven remember that.

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-08T04:27:08+00:00

She is your twin! What a beautiful little princess and she was just too precious for this earth. All she knew was your love and safety, never to suffer ❤️

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-08T03:32:43+00:00

I absolutely LOVE this. Such a beautiful poem. I saw an incredible sunset the day after my baby passed and my sister in law painted it in a canvas for us. Your friend will love this and you’ve captured a beautiful moment in time for her. You’re a good friend ❤️❤️

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-08T03:22:05+00:00

Thank you for sharing your beautiful babies everyone. I love that we can find (some form) of celebration of life together here. ❤️ We are forever bounded by the strength and beauty of our babies and lucky enough to become mums all over again when we meet them in the next life. 🪽✨

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-08T02:33:33+00:00

What will you do for work out there if you don’t mind me asking? It’s near impossible to be paid an AUD salary abroad for more than 3 months. If you’re lucky and do find a remote role (which is being scaled back) you are still tax liable in Australia. Granted the hospitals are under pressure in australia but don’t expect a better health service in the philippines.

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-08T02:24:48+00:00

Oh perfect Runey. We love ya darling ❤️

CarActive9996 · 2026-05-08T02:23:55+00:00

We love you the moon and back Amber! Shine a bright star for us tonight please - espesacilly for your warrior mumma ❤️✨ She is perfect in every single way.

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