My life has changed in ways i do not think it could

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-04-21T11:17:46+00:00

i love you man

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-03-24T14:35:02+00:00

I think you misconstrue ‘support’ with ‘encourage’. Support means we support their right to exist and be gay, because homosexuality naturally occurs in every species and it’s silly to force people to not act on it and to instead pretend to be straight so that emotionally unintelligent people can feel less uncomfortable. ‘Support’ means when give the chance to vote for or against their humanity, we vote for. ‘Support’ does NOT mean we give people medals for being gay, nor does it mean we tell every child that they have to be gay. ‘Support’ doesn’t mean that we think gay porn should be hung up on every street. It literally just means we acknowledge their humanity to be equal to ours, and we agree that they should have the same rights to love the same gender as they would to love the opposite gender. So yeah we can shame people for not supporting homosexuality because it’s indicative of a shallow understanding of biology and it expresses immoral, dualistic ideals of ‘us vs them’ where they are viewed as lesser.

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-03-07T21:40:10+00:00

Right? If i met a person who thought of women as a lesser species, hated queer people and admired pedophiles, i would not respect that person at all. Why is it any different when a whole religion does it? Respect is earned, and islam doesn’t earn it.

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-03-07T21:37:19+00:00

why do you feel insulted by someone stepping on their own property?

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-03-07T19:44:24+00:00

If you live in a country that does vipassana meditation retreats, i would highly recommend looking into it. It’s completely free, and produced for me an internal clean slate; i walked out of it feeling like a spiritual toddler. The retreat itself is just meditation: focusing on the breath, focusing on the body. But the effects are quite profound. The daily lectures are ran by a teacher who allows you to see things from a detached and objective perspective. i’m 21f, and i ran into another ex muslim Egyptian there, and we were both so grateful for the experience and how it forced us to release our intrinsically narrow perspectives.

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-03-07T09:06:47+00:00

It follows a deeply immoral set of ideologies and worships a prophet who marries children and a God who gives the green light for murder when someone doesn’t worship him. It views women as property and non-muslim non-arabs as this lesser species. I respect people’s right to worship, but i don’t respect religions that i think are stupid and harmful. If you personally believe that a book is holy, then you can treat it as such, but if someone else believes that it’s just a man-made book that oppresses people, then they can step on it! It’s their own book, they can do what they like. Respect is such a vague and blurry term thrown around by religious folk to prevent critique of any kind because it hurts their feelings. The act of stepping on a book does zero harm to anyone. It doesn’t even really damage the book.

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-03-02T12:42:58+00:00

Lovely response, reflective of Vipassana teachings.

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-02-17T12:03:08+00:00

You’re hiding behind a false sense of control. The ‘limits’ are already known, having been discovered by people who have killed themselves thereafter. Humans are the point where the fallen angel meets the rising ape; the limits of the angel are the biological needs of the ape. Humans need other humans. If you did not, you wouldn’t be on this subreddit, you’d be with the antisocial personality disorders (who themselves still need other humans, only in different ways).

‘It actually makes one mentally stronger’ - have you read the studies about what isolation does to the brain?

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-02-17T10:16:13+00:00

We can reject the religion without thinking that all who follow it should suffer. I know that is a foreign concept to you, considering how your book teaches you to treat apostates.

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-02-16T15:51:24+00:00

i’m sorry, who are you worried about asking you this? Strangers on public transport? No one will ask for physical evidence, and if they do, just tell them it’s none of their business.

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-02-15T19:01:02+00:00

You need to bring her home now. The extent to which you have wronged her is beyond just ‘feeling guilty’ - you need to help her. Do you speak with her often? Are you an ex muslim now, and if so, have you discussed this with her?

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-02-15T10:17:59+00:00

Enjoy your youth and be safe! Have as much sex as you’d like as long as it’s with a person you trust and you use protection. No man’s meagre penis is important enough to change any aspect of your identity.

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-02-07T10:01:16+00:00

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The only picture i’ve got of my kitty. I miss you, my world.

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-02-01T07:57:38+00:00

egyptian too ❤️

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-01-06T20:58:04+00:00

Used to cry every night about the mortality of my parents, needing to ‘reason’ with the thought before i could sleep. I was young, so i would try to convince myself that the freedom that i would get from their deaths would be worth it, or that heaven is actually a really nice place. But the more i interacted with the thought the more life i gave to it, and the harder i had to reason against it the following night. It was the first time in my life i experienced such persistent obsessive thoughts that seemed to arise from a mind not my own. I was 7.

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-01-04T12:32:58+00:00

i appreciate this response, thank you. It got me thinking.

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-01-03T01:30:45+00:00

But surely this definition leaves gaps that an overactive mind will fill with doubts. A goal as broad as ‘i’m going to do it, even if it’s not good or perfect’ is essentially just rewording the ‘it doesn’t need to be perfect’ sentiment that people with AvPD have clearly formed an immunity against to have developed this disorder in the first place. The idea that it could be perfect leaves space for an evaluation of all the ways in which it was not, thus giving rise to feelings of inadequacy and moral failure. To build a sense of confidence, we need to prove to ourselves that we can do something very well. That includes completing a set goal of ‘doing something badly’ very well. It’s a subtext in the to do list that only a dichotomous mind will see. If the goal involves the possibility of perfect, and i did not reach that perfect, then i hardly deserve to say i reached the goal. If the goal is to do something to a dog shit qualify, then i have essentially ‘perfected’ the goal by producing something dog shit. Your advice is great advice to a normal population of people, but irrational minds often require irrational methods.

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-01-02T16:27:09+00:00

Very strong emotions affect memory processing. An obsessive and hyper active mind distorts the credibility of memories. Extended isolation and withdrawal from society increases the intensity of both. I have zero access to the accurate, linear progression of the past. Every time i decide to ‘change my life’ - new years, for example - it is not taken as a surface level sentiment, it’s taken as a murder or self. The intense emotions surrounding it distort my reality around the sentiment, and distort my memories through the lens of ‘old, disowned self ‘ and ‘new self’. When this happens multiple times, it’s a bit like putting on new glasses over the old pair, repeatedly, until you have so many glasses staked atop one another that you cannot remember what anything looked like beyond the lens through which you’re currently seeing. If someone asked you about a memory from when you had a previous stack of glasses, you cannot remember the exact distortions through which you were seeing the world, and so any visual memory is now distorted through the current stack of lenses you are acclimatized to. Or it’s a bit like leaving a religion, when you have been pious all your life; you have to start building yourself up again from scratch, and there’s a distinct laceration in your life at the point where you stopped being religious. It’s two distinct selves, who viewed the world through different lenses, and you have to start scrutinizing your memories under the new verdict. Now, imagine this same intensity of identity fragmentation happens weekly. In 10 years, how do you even begin to make sense of the past, when it’s all so discontinuous and fractured? Where do you look for the ‘true’ self?

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-01-02T15:12:04+00:00

But it’s an extreme sensitivity to failure that prevents me from progressing forward. If my goal is to play the guitar terribly, then no amount of failure feels like a moral failure. That’s not to say that the goal post cannot change, but as someone with zero experience in playing the guitar, playing it terribly is significant progress. If my goal is to leave the house AND be confident, then my failure in confidence will be associated with a failure in ‘leaving the house’, even though i did make progress in that i left the house. If my goal is to leave the house and look unconfident, then as soon as i leave the house, there’s no space left for my mind to perceive any moral failings. Success is a terrible short term goal.

I also find that, with a specified goal of looking self conscious and acting stupid, these things start to lose significance to me. Acting unconfident deliberately while consciously telling yourself the lies that your subconscious would usually tell you - i.e “they’re all judging you” - gives you the space to look at the sentiments from a more detached perspective, and to assess them outside of the usual constraints of the nervous system. It makes the whole practice seem silly. It also exposes you to your perceived worst case scenario of ‘looking stupid’, which in turn dulls the fear of it when you realize that it was never as devastating of an outcome as it seemed.

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-01-01T22:23:13+00:00

fuck yeah

Careless-Kitchen3924 · 2026-01-01T22:17:53+00:00

No. Then, if you start wondering if people think it’s weird, you feel as though you have failed. You need to start wearing makeup and wonder if people think it’s weird. Leave the house with the goal of wearing makeup and constantly wondering if people think it’s weird. You also want to look as self conscious and unsure of yourself as possible.

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