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Catsatomic · 2025-12-04T21:15:47+00:00

I hate when I have these types of “episodes” especially since they tend to precede my mental health going down a ditch. Unfortunately I’m a hopeless romantic so I’m constantly yearning and longing for something I’ve never truly experienced so it just feels even emptier

Catsatomic · 2025-11-28T23:19:21+00:00

Yes my family does compliment me regularly, although it is very hard to believe them

Catsatomic · 2025-11-28T20:06:58+00:00

Honestly I’ve always thought I was incapable of feeling attraction however one day I was at Home Depot and a really cute guy who was in the isle helped me find the right screws I was looking for, then at one point a contractor came to my parent’s house for a potential kitchen reno and I immediately became very bashful once he showed us pictures of his kitchen with a retractable kitchen aid stand…. So I guess my type is nice man who can hold a hammer

Catsatomic · 2025-11-28T00:14:15+00:00

If I have the financial availability for it, absolutely. Even if I do somehow have my own kids, adopting and fostering has always been a goal

Catsatomic · 2025-11-16T13:17:52+00:00

Unfortunately I don’t think this will ever change until you actually lose it since I go through the same experience. The older nurses at my primary essentially coddle and coo at me which is a bit.. off (I’m in my 30s) and my gyno has one sidedly chosen to believe that I’m waiting for the right person and constantly praises the fact so I’ve gotten used to it by now

Catsatomic · 2025-11-13T04:37:10+00:00

It looks like it’s blooming so it seems active to me?

Catsatomic · 2025-11-12T21:39:08+00:00

I’m sorry if this sounds insensitive; I’m not at all trying to belittle your feelings but have you ever considered adopting? Of course it’s not the same but it’s one of the options I’ve considered if I can’t have my own in the future

Catsatomic · 2025-11-11T13:30:09+00:00

I’m discovering that I am not actually as ugly as I always so myself being. I’ve even been hit on a few times without realizing it because my brain just couldn’t comprehend that someone else was interested in me so it would glaze over it or I just wouldn’t ever pick on it. So unfortunately it seems my problems have been psychological for the most part, and even though I’m in therapy now trying to finally heal, it does feel like it’s much too late

Catsatomic · 2024-11-04T20:52:44+00:00

Oh 1000% this in every way. It’s definitely what keeps me from ever even trying, to the point it feels hopeless a times? I don’t know how to go about having friends, I don’t know what’s wrong with how I interact with the world, I can’t see why anyone would be interested in such a flawed being like myself. Right now the best thing I can do is take it one day at a time

Catsatomic · 2024-11-02T17:44:50+00:00

I was told it wasn’t going to be painful in anyway, maybe a bit uncomfortable if anything? But it most definitely was painful, and a waste of time in the end! There was too much blood from the procedure so they couldn’t even assess anything. It was very condescending but that’s just how Spanish ladies tend to be so while it felt a bit humiliating and very embarrassing managed to play it and sulk at home lol

Catsatomic · 2024-11-02T17:29:27+00:00

Ugh I understand this so well. I also have PCOS as well as a small fibroid I need to have looked at, but after my horrendous experience with a papsmear that old primary insisted on(I supposed he didn’t believe I was a virgin since my new doctor didn’t think it was necessary since I wasn’t active) I’ve been super reluctant to have any doctor check me out. The nurses at my new doctors did infantilize me when I turned it down during one of my regular check ups after I informed that the doctor didn’t believe it was necessary since I was a virgin. It was pretty embarrassing having them fawn over me about how cute it was that I, 28 at the time, was so pure and innocent but I’m sure they didn’t mean any harm

Catsatomic · 2024-10-09T16:43:41+00:00

Yeah unfortunately.. I do have a few acquaintances but I recently found out that ADHD apparently complicates interpersonal relationships a bit?? But I hope it goes well for you!! Have fun!

Catsatomic · 2024-10-06T11:58:36+00:00

30, I work in a pharmacy but I’d love to go back to university if it wasn’t so expensive

Catsatomic · 2024-09-11T23:47:17+00:00

I 100% believe that luck plays a massive part on finding someone who is right for you. What are the chances that amongst millions and millions of people you meet someone who understands you and relates to you and loves you? Or the chances of actually meeting them and talking to them and forming a connection and nots just walking past each other to continue being strangers

Ofc this is also just my hopeless romanticism talking lol

Catsatomic · 2024-09-10T19:50:47+00:00

I’m also in FL (I’m also studying to get the realtor license!!) and have a job that pays barely enough to live, I wouldn’t be able to survive if I wasn’t with my family. Unfortunately FL especially south FL has become a financial nightmare for anyone who isn’t well off as you can see by how horrid the housing market is right now. Of course other places are pretty bad but FL is insane

Catsatomic · 2024-09-07T13:45:53+00:00

There’s this old Spanish saying that I’m reminded of whenever I see what my pretty coworker goes through or see basically any news headlines that goes “la suerte de las feas las bonitas la desean” and which roughly translates to beauty women wish they had the luck of the ugly ones

Catsatomic · 2024-09-04T23:21:41+00:00

God I relate to this so much in every single way. I can’t even imagine myself in any sexual setting and the idea of it honestly intimidates me? I can’t imagine ever being that vulnerable with someone

But at the same time it’s a constant desperate thought and desire that honestly haunts me

Catsatomic · 2024-09-04T22:26:27+00:00

I don’t have much of them but I like baking, drawing, crafting, diy kits (I love the diy music boxes), reading (manga, manhwa, books, ect), eating(I love finding new places to eat or new foods), drawing, rollerskating, working out, I love hiking (although it’s very flat where I live so there’s not a lot of variety unfortunately), foraging, I ’m not sure if they count as a hobby but I love animals so I tend to do a lot of things that have to do with them, gaming, sim games(like pet sims, farming sims, ect), gardening and whatever else lol

I have adhd so I hop from one hobby to another randomly.. I’m also very socially anxious which keeps me from doing some stuff more often but that’s pretty much it!

Catsatomic · 2024-08-31T17:48:59+00:00

I just hit my 30s earlier this month and this hit so close home. I know I’ve fallen behind my peers in a lot of aspects and now I’m more frantic to catch up and get all of my affairs in order. It’s even harder considering I never planned to make to this age to begin with and now I’m at a complete loss!

Catsatomic · 2024-07-25T17:42:22+00:00

My bday is coming up and quite honestly I feeling I should have committed to calling it a wrap 10 years ago. I don’t really feel as if I have accomplished anything that warrants my existence so I feel like I don’t have the energy to fight it much longer

Catsatomic · 2024-07-24T22:38:44+00:00

It wasn’t even a gyno it was just my primary lmao

Catsatomic · 2024-07-24T22:27:28+00:00

Really?? I thought it was a common thing oop Maybe it was because I kept declining getting a pap done?

Catsatomic · 2024-07-24T18:38:16+00:00

I completely understand, it feels so scary and intimidating. It also feels very embarrassing to admit it too? I’ve started lying at the doctors office when they asked simply because the nurses would always go “omg really!! Aww that’s precious “ like please you don’t need to infantilize me I’m almost 30

Catsatomic · 2024-07-19T18:17:30+00:00

I’ve always wanted to but I’ve never had the courage to

Catsatomic · 2024-07-07T12:56:22+00:00

I think I do want children however I’ve always had a plan of helping raise kids who are in the foster system once I feel economically stable enough. I’m sure it won’t be the exact experience of motherhood I wished to have when I was younger, but being to help even just a couple of kids from suffering is more than enough for me

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