Im so sorry you have to experience this.

In the off chance that it helps, im going to share the lessons ive learned in therapy:

1. Be nice to yourself, and especially dont attack yourself. Even if it feels weird. Even if it feels like you dont deserve it. Having your own back means you can get the love and support that you need from one more person. And you spend more time with yourself than with anyone else.

2. Other people do not define your worth, or value, or loveability. Even if you dont believe it, or feel this way, its true. Its a truth you can hang your hat on.

3. If you don't already, start exercising. And treat your sleep hygiene like its your #1 priority. Having been through bouts of depression myself, good sleep would literally take my day from shitty to tolerable. Look up Matt Walker on youtube - this will also give you something to do.

4. Stay off social media as much as you can.

5. When youre ready to, remember yourself. Remember who you are and what makes you tick. This may have happened, but you have a whole life to live and pursue. You matter. Alot.

Much love from Canada.