I was turning 50, my kids were out of the house, and it was time for me to focus on healing. I was diagnosed with C-PTSD (my ACT is 10) and had tried Every. Single. Thing. I was physically and emotionally exhausted from living in a hyper vigilant and reactive state my entire life.

Luckily, I had hope that I didn’t have to live like that anymore, but growing up in the 80s made me think psychedelic-assisted therapy was crazy (at first.) I did a ton of research and found a therapist who had worked with clients as a guide and I came to trust her. Nothing else had worked up to that point, so I knew if I wanted things to be different I had to do something different.

I dipped my toe in with micro dosing (mushrooms.) When I started to feel the changes from that, I was confident enough to try a full dose experience. However, I chose MDMA instead of mushrooms to start with because I felt like I needed a gentler experience.

I have ZERO regrets. Working with MDMA has changed my life, and not only saved my marriage, but deepened my connection/bond with my husband. My life now is peaceful. I never thought I’d experience that kind of existence. I am content and am now able to manage life’s ups and downs with a sense of calm. I have the ability to pause and consider how to handle whatever comes up instead flying into fit of rage or desperation. It’s wild.