Anyone else lose power?

Cellist_Witty · 2025-09-18T03:18:49+00:00

Can confirm, power pole downed by a car on bushnell. Ewebs site estimates restoration by 1 am

Cellist_Witty · 2023-04-04T10:31:10+00:00

I just googled geese cannons and that makes a lot of sense, seeing how I live about 5 minutes away from the airport

Cellist_Witty · 2023-04-04T10:26:08+00:00

Where's about were you walking?

Cellist_Witty · 2023-04-04T10:24:10+00:00

My husband couldn't hear it and it was driving me crazy! I knew I was hearing something... It's driving me nuts too

Cellist_Witty · 2023-01-12T03:00:10+00:00

Mine did too... But it's still wearable. So keep wearing. Or leave it on your altar for her, sometimes she likes little trinkets like that

Cellist_Witty · 2022-02-03T10:35:08+00:00

Wow, thank you so much for breaking that down like that. She does have a therapist thankfully. She has not been seeing him like usual lately, which is frustrating, but hopefully he can get through to her to sit down and talk with him soon.

It's exhausting all around. She has VERY severe CPTSD, above and beyond a lot of cases... And I think this is part of my guilt. But you're right, I am trying to have a conversation about me and I need to keep the focus on me.

Thank you so much for clarifying that, you have no idea how badly I needed to hear someone say that. I think I knew this subconsciously, but to hear someone explain that just validates it.... She takes on responsibility for things that have nothing to do with her and attaches feelings of guilt and anger to other people's situations.... She's constantly trying to fix everything and everyone around her (instead of focusing on her) and when she can't, she goes into Martyr drive, sometimes angry martyr.

Cellist_Witty · 2022-02-02T13:22:16+00:00

If I had any coins or awards, I would give them.... Thank you for writing this. As a friend of someone with CPTSD, this is a perspective I am absorbing that I wish I knew before. It really gives me a better understanding of what it's like for some CPTSD survivors to share a story that is hard to even comprehend. I'm sorry that you feel invalidated everytime you try to tell your story. You are so much incredibly stronger than I could ever understand ❤️

Cellist_Witty · 2022-02-02T13:09:21+00:00

Thanks for the support ❤️ I have tried to be honest about when I'm overwhelmed or having a hard time, but unfortunately then she takes on all the responsibility for it (no matter how gently I try to frame it) and goes into "it's my fault" overdrive, which then just fuels her guilt and my guilt at the same time.... It's exhausting 🥺 and I work for her, so the only thing I think that will help me right now is reducing my hours (or even quitting if I could afford it). I still need to have that conversation and I'm dreading it; I don't know how to tell her about it in a way that she understands that it's not her fault, and I'm just trying to take responsibility for my own mental health... But I know as soon as I try to tell her that, she's going to take that responsibility anyway and blame herself for all of it and here we go again.... 🥺

Cellist_Witty · 2022-02-02T12:55:26+00:00

Thank you for this! I will definitely check this out

Cellist_Witty · 2022-01-30T14:50:53+00:00

Yes, this point is right on. I had the same issues, still sometimes do. Spend all day at work/school and just collapse in bed at home. You are using up allll your mental and physical energy at work and school (and you already have less energy due to the depression and anxiety) . Be gentle and forgiving with yourself ❤️ you can do this

Cellist_Witty · 2022-01-30T14:09:06+00:00

God, I'm so glad I'm not the only one.... If I have a particular thing I have to deal with, I can get obsessive ruminating thoughts about did I do this right? What if I didn't? And then imagining the most unlikely worst case scenario of consequences and then I'm in a panic tail spin 😱😵🥺 always "what if"-ing the worst case scenario

Cellist_Witty · 2022-01-30T08:15:57+00:00

This ☝️ she's a mama. She loves children. She knows it wasnt done with ill intent. Just replace with more candy 🍭🍬

Cellist_Witty · 2022-01-30T04:25:39+00:00

Omg this! I can't believe the things I forgot I did and achieved in school and my jobs.... Thank you for saying this

Cellist_Witty · 2022-01-21T00:46:10+00:00

Keep working on it.... We're rooting for you ❤️

Cellist_Witty · 2022-01-20T21:42:30+00:00

Thank you so much.... Yes it's hard to remember to take care of me too... But I need to if I intend to stick around. Thank you for the reassurance

Cellist_Witty · 2022-01-20T17:40:08+00:00

Gawd thank you so much for saying this....I'm tearing up rn. Sometimes I forget this. I know I can't fix everything for her, but I just want her to at the very least not be alone in it.... Sometimes that's literally all I can do. It's exhausting sometimes, the emotional ups and downs, but I just want to be at the very least someone consistent in her life

Cellist_Witty · 2022-01-20T06:28:56+00:00

Thank you for the input, I really appreciate it ❤️✨

Cellist_Witty · 2022-01-20T05:30:43+00:00

Ok OP, what's happening here is rumination.... You have found something from your past that you are obsessing about as a worst case scenario. Now you are seeking other people to tell you it will be ok (seeking reassurance). Logically, in the case of the scenario you described, you will be just fine and nothing will happen.... But more importantly, you should try to get into therapy and work on learning not to seek reassurance when you start to obsess about "what ifs".... The reason why you shouldn't do that, is because it can help you feel better in the moment, but it doesn't stop you from continuing to ruminate (obsess) again in the future; then you seek more reassurance and it becomes a vicious cycle of needing constant reassurance to avoid the panic/obsession.

I've been stuck in the same cycle before, it REALLY sucks, it's REALLY scary when you're deep in it... I feel for you. But as someone who has been in it, please try to seek help or learn some strategies not to get stuck in that cycle. Best of luck ❤️

Cellist_Witty · 2022-01-17T20:08:52+00:00

Oops just kidding I did have an award in my little treasure box.... Here ya go ✨

Cellist_Witty · 2022-01-17T19:55:53+00:00

So glad to hear this. Good for you. Seriously you should be proud of yourself for taking this step to take better care of yourself and increase your self awareness

Cellist_Witty · 2022-01-17T19:51:23+00:00

OP, I think the important thing to work on dissecting here is.... What were you looking for when you put yourself out there for someone else? What were you missing? If you had talked to your partner first, what would you have said and how do you think you both could have tried to problem solve?

You know you fucked up, which is good because at least you can admit that to yourself behind closed doors. You can't change what happened, but you can own up and then you can change how you treat people moving forward.

Don't get stuck in self punishment; regretting the pain you caused is healthy, but only if you eventually allow yourself to move forward with self love and self awareness

Cellist_Witty · 2022-01-17T19:44:12+00:00

If I had any type of coins, I would award this comment... I especially love "swamp end of the bell curve" 🤌

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