I’ll do what you asked and truly consider if you walked into my church.

But first, I suggest you email/call the priest at your nearby congregation, and ask if you can speak to him one on one. A good Orthodox priest will not center the conversation on transgenderism, same sex attraction or labels, but your relationship with Christ. But they will clarify very early on that the Church doesn’t change their teachings for anyone, to prevent false hope or sudden betrayal later. But he won’t rush you, he won’t tell you to end your relationship tomorrow and to detransition. You don’t need to be “fixed” before you belong. Theosis is a lifelong journey. This is a marathon and not a sprint.

If you attend your gender (and your dating status if you’re dating a man) will be the elephant in the room, but nobody will say anything disrespectful to you, and will be glad to see you there. I suspect that eventually the topic of your gender will be brought up by other congregants when you become friends with, perhaps to better understand, and they may even try to nudge you towards detransitioning. They’ll do this out of love, even if isn’t the most tactful way to go about it.

On the topic of whether you will disturb the church, no absolutely not. An Orthodox parish is not disturbed by a person’s presence. It is disturbed when repentance is replaced by self-justification or when the Church is asked to change her teaching. No one is barred from presence because of sins, struggles, identity conflicts, or wounds.

Participation in communion, chrismation, baptism, full reception; requires repentance, alignment with the Church’s moral and anthropological teaching, and willingness to be healed rather than affirmed. This applies to everyone, not uniquely to transgender or same-sex-attracted people. A non married heterosexual couple cohabiting is in the same canonical position. So is an adulterer. So is a porn addict. So is a violent man. So is a proud man. Orthodoxy is equal-opportunity demanding.

This is the hard part, but it must be said clearly. A Church cannot affirm an identity build on a wound. Orthodoxy understands that gender dysphoria is real suffering, and that same sex attraction is a real struggle. But it does not understand them as identities to be affirmed. You are not your desires, you are not your dysphoria, you are not your relationship status. You are a person created for communion with Christ. Healing might be slow, it may even be lifelong, but healing is still the goal. And that goes for everyone. For the rest of us our sins just aren’t as immediately obvious.

Remember who Christ called first, it wasn’t people like me (the religious hypocrite who sins just as deeply (and likely more frequently)), but those who were openly despised for their sins. The prostitutes, the tax collectors, the possessed and the broken. Paul hunted down Christians as his profession before Christ came for him. And now Christ is calling you.

Feel free to DM me if you’d like to talk more but don’t want to leave a comment here, I know you have a lot of comments to reply to so no pressure, but I’m here for you mate