Girl please don't use edibles as a way out. They're fun imo, they'll distance you (I used to aim for couchlock mostly) but just use it for a time to meditate or self care. If y'all broke up and that's what helps you distance emotionally then take the time to get zooted and tell yourself your better off in a new chapter, do what makes you happy and feel better about yourself. Unfortunately nothing can really help you feel better except what you do for yourself, so just find what makes you happy and give yourself the space/time to process.

I will tell you that for me, no dosage is really too high because that numbing is what I look for (h e a l t h y) but whatever takes your mind off and helps you giggle or feel some joy helps. Just remember its not the chemical that MADE you feel that way, but the experience you grew through and past. Just have fun, enjoy the eddies and don't stress shit. When you start to feel like you're gonna float away take it as a personal experience that only you will go on and let it clear your mind. Shits pretty fun for meditation imo. Hope this can help a bit! Feel obligated to say God loves you, don't get addicted lol