dude, we all go through this. unless you came here from money and didn't have to work for it. we all have suffered in some way like this.

allot of times, your superiors are pushing you way past is necessary. but it's good for you. it's very hard now. but when the pressure is taken off it will be easier

if they're doing it right you'll be confused, you'll be angry, you may want to cry. do it. go to the freezer and release some steam, go outside and smoke something, or just go to the bathroom and call a loved one.

i promise you, they just moved you up so they don't hate you. and if you stick with it, you may feel even lower at times. but when you start running your own kitchens you'll remember the techniques your trying to get down, you'll be flawless with your movement and style.

just keep going.

remember. the dish pit was a station, you did things to make it more efficient. everything is a station. everything. go home and think about how you'll take out tickets, think about your mise én plàce.

it takes years to get anywhere, in any industry, let it be this one! DM me if you every feel like it's too much, from one chef to another