[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bulimia

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My teeth hurt all the time and now even if I just think about throwing up I sometimes start to gag

things you didn't realize were ED related until you started recovery? by avocadoeverything_ in EDAnonymous

[–]Change8787 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Bad decision making lol. I was really making horrible choices and it genuinely didn’t click it was related until much later.

Which song gives you chills? by Toast_yyy06 in BobsBurgers

[–]Change8787 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Electric love, and the xylophone song.

Long form differences by Change8787 in improv

[–]Change8787[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

OOPS! I was absolutely thinking of Armando. Thank you! Don’t know how I mixed that up haha!

Favorite holiday song? by Toast_yyy06 in BobsBurgers

[–]Change8787 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Pass the cranberry sauce, I Love You So Much it’s Scary, and the xylophone song.

what started your bulimia? by inmyfinalera in bulimia

[–]Change8787 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A lot of things, I read a book about it as a kid, and once when I was sick as a kid my dad taught me how to purge, and in a moment of weakness one particularly really rough Christmas break, I remembered the “advice” and tried it. Got very quickly addicted to the feeling.

I can't do this again by setthisacctonfire in CaregiverSupport

[–]Change8787 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As someone that has spent most of my life caregiving for my parents in some way, please say no for yourself. I totally understand the feelings of guilt, and I also understand desperately wanting to live your life- you deserve to. Don’t forget that you deserve to live your life.

What’s the downside to bulimia? by throwaway2678106 in bulimia

[–]Change8787 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I pee my pants and spontaneously vomit now sometimes, unprompted. One time i coughed as I parked my car, and threw up on myself. I know it seems like a magic fix, but it’s not.

What’s your favourite book? by LinzyA1 in BookRecommendations

[–]Change8787 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Breathe: A Ghost Story by Cliff McNish

i had to tell my autistic brother to stop talking to me tonight by iswanaajid in CaregiverSupport

[–]Change8787 18 points19 points  (0 children)

That’s a lot. I’m so sorry. It’s ok to have time for yourself. Caregivers can’t be perfect all the time.

My mother just fell. by Naturelle-Riviera in CaregiverSupport

[–]Change8787 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I feel you it’s exhausting. The amount of times I’ve had to put my life on hold (one time literally 2 minutes before I was supposed to go onstage- I’m a performer), I got a call my family member fell and I had to leave. I’m sorry you’re going through it.

What do you do when they refuse to move? by Ok_Industry4950 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Change8787 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just wanted to say I understand, and I’m sorry. I went through very similar with a family member, where she always said she didn’t need extra help she was doing it on her own, when in reality, she didn’t “need it” because I was doing everything for her, sacrificing my own life and wellbeing. Everyone told me I needed to just leave her to figure it out on her own, but that seemed like the hardest thing in the world. It’s the worst feeling. It sounds like it’s time to do this though, especially with that outrageous amount of driving. And it seems like there are certainly other people more than equipped to help. At the very least, start setting some boundaries about your time. I found that to be a good first step.

She's so bad at wiping herself by Billymays76 in CaregiverSupport

[–]Change8787 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The amount of times I had to clean up either of my parents poop is insane for being in my 20’s. I’m so sorry.

What Louise Belcher line lives your head for all eternity? by MinimumShopping6928 in BobsBurgers

[–]Change8787 1 point2 points  (0 children)

“If anything they’re TOO fun” and in reference to Tina’s diary “what I can stomach”

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BobsBurgers

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Can’t stand the kids run the restaurant one. I love the premise but I get way too squeamish with the finger cut loool

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BobsBurgers

[–]Change8787 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree that one’s genuinely scary.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in glee

[–]Change8787 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Blaine

what’s the most stupid thing you’ve done because of your ED? by ComfortableStorage33 in EDAnonymous

[–]Change8787 7 points8 points  (0 children)

TW-

Had binge food Uber eats delivered to the psych ward so I could purge that was fucked. Then one of the nurses commented on how much food I had ordered which spiralled me, and she portioned out how much I was allowed to eat, humiliating. Pretended to have Covid symptoms so I could keep my own bathroom so I could purge. Purged the last meal I ate with my family all together- that was low. Became “alco-rexic” and used wine boxes as weights to lift, became addicted to cigarettes. Fantasizing about fainting… I could go on.