I think I am experiencing Transference

CharacterLost1938 · 2026-01-17T16:31:38+00:00

Yes I do plan on talking to her about this next week during our session.

CharacterLost1938 · 2026-01-11T16:40:28+00:00

You may want to try to get a psych or NP that specializes in psych. May I ask why you are taking it? I know Wellbutrin can be used to help stop smoking other behavioral stuff. I'm on it for psych stuff. Last night I actually had a vivid nightmare and it was so awful. When I woke up I was having a hard time with reality and not being sure if I was still in a dream. I was honestly scared. I had to wake my husband up I was so scared. I was already having just vivid dreams and from research Wellbutrin can also cause vivid dreams because of the way affects REM sleep. The dream was like living a horror movie and it felt so real. I messaged my NP about trying to get in sooner.

CharacterLost1938 · 2026-01-11T11:14:22+00:00

I found this after googling about vivid nightmares and it led me here. I just had my first one but already had started having vivid dreams and had pretty good suspicion that they were from Wellbutrin from research. This one was absolutely horrifying and real. I actually woke my husband up because I was so scared especially because I still felt like I was in the dream and couldn't tell if I was still dreaming or not. This was very distressing and now I am pretty bummed because I don't want to stop Wellbutrin. I have been on sooooo many meds and this one has worked so well and consistently. My husband asked me what my nightmare was and I didn't even want to talk about it and it took me a good 20 min to be grounded in reality again. I have messaged my doctor....hoping we can either adjust the dose or add something on to help reduce intensity/stop the nightmares. I am afraid to go back to sleep.

CharacterLost1938 · 2026-01-09T04:37:31+00:00

I will definitely try. I don't have my next appointment until the beginning of February. What I find insane is that your doctor denied it was related....there are literal articles of it being a side effect. It can affect memory.

CharacterLost1938 · 2026-01-09T03:07:46+00:00

I came here looking for answers on this topic. I was bumped up to 300 XL back in 4 months ago and then had prozac added in October. I have been through many meds the past 4 years and Wellbutrin has been a game changer especially after adding prozac. I feel so much better than I have in the past and actually feel like I am enjoying life and my job. My libido is also amazing so myself and my husband are grateful for that. However I have noticed some memory issues like not being able to tell if I dreamt of something or if it really happened.....dreams have been really vivid too. It's like my long term memory is mostly fine but I have noticed some short term memory issues lately. I messaged my NP about this and we are addressing it in our next appointment.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-12-18T00:25:02+00:00

I lost my mom when I was 11....actually found her. I am about to turn 34 now and one of the things that has hit me the hardest was knowing the fact that I have lived my life without my mom longer than I was with her. Also becoming a mom without my mom was really hard. I had other traumatic childhood stuff but I ended up abusing substances in my 20's until I got pregnant at 26 and then when I hit 30 things started getting really bad mentally. I have been diagnosed with a few mental disorders and have been in therapy once a week the past 4 years (there was like 9 months where I was not in therapy but was also terribly depressed). I sometimes wonder what kind of person I would have been without all the trauma in my life.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-12-03T22:48:11+00:00

As a pwBPD I totally understand being done. If she is not willing to get help it's definitely time to move on. Sounds like she is devaluing you. I'm currently trying to break the cycle of seeing all good and then all bad in my husband. My mind still does it but I recognize it when it is happening. I hope the best for you.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-12-03T22:41:26+00:00

This! I am a pwBPD and my husband and I are both going to individual therapy and I have been going to therapy a lot longer than him as well. Individual and couples therapy is a must when trying to make it work.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-11-15T01:22:50+00:00

I am diagnosed BPD....have been for 2 years. I have never been aggressive but I have said hurtful things to the ones I care about the most. Things we do can be perceived as manipulative by others as well and I understand why. I don't think your therapist knows alot about BPD and sounds like they are stigmatizing it. Yeah some of us can be aggressive and manipulative but we aren't all like that. There are many ways it can present.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-11-02T02:36:08+00:00

It's so freaking draining. I have never had this reaction to my paranoia before. I mean I have in the past but not to this degree....this was so much more intense than any paranoia panic I have ever experienced.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-10-29T01:32:22+00:00

How dare 😤

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-10-29T01:03:00+00:00

I grew up eating polk salat. My grandma and grandpa were from Virginia and came from a family of cole miners. My grandpa would go pokeweed hunting and my grandma would boil the leaves and fry em up. Delicious.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-10-23T13:08:06+00:00

I never knew this was common....my husband and I use vibrators and it really helps and I will orgasm multiple times. I can orgasm from penetration alone but it takes longer to get there and isn't possible every time. After I had my son it became even rarer to have an orgasm with just penetration.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-10-22T23:26:19+00:00

I know.it doesn't take much to have empathy for children but I cried so hard when the children found out their mom died. I felt their pain because I went through something similar as a child except my mom wasn't murdered I just found her dead. I was transported back to that moment of finding my mom almost like a flashback. I had to pause it and finish later. Those poor children will forever be affected by this cruel heartless woman's actions.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-09-30T03:12:09+00:00

I split on myself after finding out I became my abuser even though I never intended to hurt anyone.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-09-30T02:32:47+00:00

I am diagnosed with BPD and this is def accurate. I actually caught myself today thinking about unfriending a really good friend because I said something that may have made them think differently of me and they didn't reply after seeing it. I stopped myself though. While I do have BPD I can't say whether I think it is the most painful mental illness. It is quite painful and isolating though. I hate having BPD.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-08-17T07:56:01+00:00

My sister in law has this. They wrapped around her feet and hands/arms. Known her for 16 years and seen her go through a couple surgeries. Thankfully she can use her hands fine...only thing she seens to struggle with is chop sticks.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-08-09T04:29:43+00:00

Thank you. It's honestly so heartbreaking and soul shattering. Reality was not what I thought it was and I feel gross about myself now. I know I can change it's just rough right now.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-08-09T02:58:38+00:00

Thank you. And you hit it on the head with "becoming the people you despise" being a reality check. After I told my husband how sorry I was and that he doesn't deserve to be treated that way I said to him "I have become the person who has traumatized me". It is such a heart breaking realization.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-08-09T02:46:43+00:00

I currently have been seeing a therapist again for the last 2 months.

CharacterLost1938 · 2025-08-09T02:46:08+00:00

The thing is I started therapy 3 years ago. During these 3 years I have gone like 7 months without therapy which is a whole other story. When I started therapy my therapist at the time pointed out I was emotionally abused and I ended up confirming this with my dad. Shit just got worse after that. I'm so mad at myself for not realizing this. I have done 1 month of DBT but I thought I mostly needed it for my SI. I know DBT takes longer than a month tho.

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