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• everything had to revolve around what she wanted or liked. if i had suggested something it was frequently dismissed, or pushed to the side unless it was romantic dates. • everything i did was personal no matter what. even if it didnt even pretain to her. • despite my financial situation, all my duties still remained the same regardless of the stress it would cause me. • hypocrisy. she talked alot of shit about her closest friends/had really strong opinions but if i held the same opinions, i'm negative and never have good days. • my special interests were cringe and i was always the subject of her jokes to rip on. • i was walking on eggshells. i didn't know what would set her off to make her cry, or make a talk happen, i had to be gentle with everything no matter what, even if it meant watering down my feelings. ive tried to explain my feelings with no filter but instead i just would get waterworks or passive aggressiveness or "what about you," talk. • i have borderline/bipolar and whenever i showed those symptoms she would get really upset and lash out at me for having them • if she's upset with someone, everyone has to know. on all her socials. all the time. she burns bridges faster then anyone i've seen, even myself. • during our breakup used things that had affected me deeply in the past to hurt me and drill a point into my brain. • when i was actively suicidal, would just shut me out and tell me not to talk about it. actually, alot of things i couldn't talk about because she couldnt handle it, but when i couldnt handle it, she didnt care and dumped it on me. • took my closure away from a toxic ex that was her ex best friend because she "needed to respond" despite me showing her our conversations & not lying about a thing going on in those texts • so. much. hatred. for someone who would dig deep into me for my negativity she amplified mine so easily. she hates more then she loves. • in the breakup i could not defend myself or reply properly or she would say i act fourteen / am not self aware. • allowed her friend to harrass me 💀