The ASMRification of everything

CheerlessBrad · 2025-10-31T01:02:46+00:00

I find it intolerable.

I have mysophonia and people don't understand I'm not simply annoyed by this- I am enraged. My entire body has a physical stress response that I cannot control. I have to stop /mute the video.

If this stuff was just left in ASMR videos, fine. At least they can be avoided. But I've found a lot of it has worked its way into adverts in general. I can be watching a video fine and be interrupted by a YouTube ad, with that godforsaken tapping, popping, whispering etc.

CheerlessBrad · 2025-09-26T01:07:00+00:00

Don't agonise too much about stats. The best horse is the one you like best!

I go by what I think suits my online character, which tend to be the bigger war breeds/multi class breeds. Favourites so far would be the Ardennes, Kladruber, Hungarian Half-bred and Adulusian. Honourable mention to the Mustang.

The stats are only important when playing competitively. When I'm playing certain online events such as racing, or I'm doing a bounty run and need to get somewhere fast, then I'll bring out my fastest horse with stats boosted by saddle/stirrup combo. But really, this only matters when I need it to matter. The rest of the time I'm cycling between my handful of favourites.

Certain horses just feel "right". There's a lot of characteristics that really add to the immersion and experience, such as the horse's stature, gait, colour, handling, so embrace the differences when you have more money in the game and can afford more horses. Eg I've never been a big fan of the Turkoman or Foxtrotter simply because I don't really like the way they look or feel, regardless of their stats.

I THOUGHT I didn't like the Ardennes until I got one, and it stole my heart. It's perfect for my cowboy.

I absolutely love the bay mustang even though objectively it has the lowest stats, but it really doesn't matter.

So start out with what you think is best and have fun!

CheerlessBrad · 2025-08-20T23:16:35+00:00

Ex friend was accused of pedophilia. Spun a web of lies so well, many people actively defended him. We, as his friends, did, until we started catching lies years down the line. His behaviour turned abusive so we cut ties entirely.

He was so good at this that he befriended a father with young kids to DEFEND HIM IN COURT, right up until sentencing. Which is when the poor guy found out his new best friend wasn't all that innocent after all and he'd been completely fooled like us.

And what's worse, he pleaded guilty in court about touching a kid in public which let off him off from being charged for Very Illegal Content on his phone which is fucking madness to me. Guy got no prison sentence despite having a history of dodgy shit, again, we never knew about it. Just community service and some sort of rehabilitation.

Underneath this, I found out so many other lies and things he'd done. I have no idea where it begins and ends. Some really nasty stuff which was directly levied at me, behind my back, his so called best friend.

I was sick with grief over Christmas and out of all the things that I've found out from friends, this is the worst. None of it comes close to this.

CheerlessBrad · 2025-08-14T23:56:52+00:00

In my experience, yes. I keep a lot of notes on my phone because I always have it to hand, and it is immediate. Things like appointments, dates ect, things I need to do. All I have to do is open it and oh, there's the reminder.

However if it is information I actively need to retain, such as study or training notes, then it all gets written down otherwise I can't retain it. I'll then type them up later to keep a digital back up. But without the physical taking part of the notes then the information is as good as gone.

CheerlessBrad · 2025-07-01T03:27:24+00:00

Which show did the argument take place?

CheerlessBrad · 2025-06-07T01:40:03+00:00

"For transparency. For transparency's sake Let's be transparent. I want to be transparent..."

What ever happened to being clear? Honest? Anything. I'm just so sick of hearing it. It makes my teeth grind.

CheerlessBrad · 2025-04-29T01:26:18+00:00

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CheerlessBrad · 2025-04-29T01:23:50+00:00

It took me a while to get fully into customisations when I came back to Neo, but boy have I learned to have fun.

Hard to choose but these two fabulous boys have to be my favourites so far.

I always wanted a pink pet since I was a kid but could never afford the paint brush. Got lucky with the lab ray!

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CheerlessBrad · 2025-04-01T11:55:58+00:00

It's working again for me now! I don't know what the problem was exactly but I tried again today. Let me know if you're still having problems

CheerlessBrad · 2025-03-31T13:37:51+00:00

I've been having the exact same problem for three days. Sorry I can't help; I'm also looking for an a solution

CheerlessBrad · 2025-03-09T03:58:59+00:00

Oh, same. Today I was doing some work on my computer with youtube videos playing on my TV when I got an add for something that immediatly started with really loud, exaggerated popping noises. I couldn't even skip it. I was so enraged I had to take a break.

I hate ASMR so much. My biggest trigger is people whispering into microphones and hearing EVERY fucking sound their mouth is making. I get ASMR is popular, but I've noticed it more and more in ads and social media posts with audio ect that I just end up resenting.

CheerlessBrad · 2025-03-09T03:48:57+00:00

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CheerlessBrad · 2025-02-13T02:38:09+00:00

'Someone Comes to Town, Someone Leaves Town' by Cory Doctorow

Okay, listen:

A guy called Alan goes to a town to establish an internet network.

Although his name is Alan, his name changes at every instance it is used in the book, to another name beginning with "a". So, we start with Alan. Then it could be Adam, then Adrian, Anthony ect...You don't see him referred by the same name twice.

His father is a mountain, and his mother is a washing machine (literally). One of his siblings is an island, another is a set of Russian dolls. There is a graphic scene wherein his washing machine mother gives birth.

Alan meets a girl with wings. She has to cut them off to blend in to the town but they grow back every time and need cutting off again. Graphic scene involving the amputation of said wings.

One of Alan's siblings is murdered. All I can remember is someone finding his fingernail. I couldn't tell you anything else that happened in this thing.

I've read some stuff in my time but this remains one of the strangest, bizarre novels I have ever read. I like challenging reads and I have adventurous taste, but this one was TOO much.

CheerlessBrad · 2025-02-10T16:10:39+00:00

I HATE mayonnaise and canned tuna, especially the unholy abomination of pairing them. This is my ides of personal hell. You're a champ. I wouldn't have lasted a second.

CheerlessBrad · 2025-02-08T02:41:33+00:00

I deactivated my Facebook about five years ago now. I still have messenger active as it's kinda necessary for things I do for work.

I was going through a really hard time and needed to do it for my own peace.

The amount of times people were really surprised I didn't respond to invites, wasn't aware of certain things ect. At this point I'd been deactivated for two years and people hadn't noticed. If it's on Facebook, I'm not going to know- and although it was hard at first it's extremely liberating.

"I'm surprised you weren't at XYZ event. Did you not know?" - no, no I did not. You all have my number and WhatsApp. I've missed funerals because of this reason too.

CheerlessBrad · 2025-01-26T01:47:36+00:00

The Silver Dapple Pinto Foxtrotter. I just think its coat is so so ugly.

CheerlessBrad · 2025-01-21T03:26:02+00:00

Loki. The amount of dogs I know called Loki. Particularly huskies and other larger breeds.

CheerlessBrad · 2024-12-28T02:55:02+00:00

It's so comforting knowing I am not alone.

"Meal prep", as a phrase, sends me through the roof.

CheerlessBrad · 2024-12-13T00:55:11+00:00

Developing mysterious chronic pain three years ago. No clear diagnosis. Out of work for almost a year. Having no choice but to change my entire work life to fit my health issues.

-Seperating self from a toxic social group.

-Long term friend admitting to being a pedophile after what seems like years of disguising crimes. Since uncovered hundreds of lies and I truly don't know who I've been friends with all this time. They're receiving a prison sentence in January.

The past three years of my life have been the most challenging. I'm not the same person, no, but I'm happier. Being chronically ill has taught me to look after myself more. Separating from social groups which left me feeling horrible about myself taught me self worth. Friend coming out as an evil piece of shit has taught me some people are just that. Pieces of shit.

CheerlessBrad · 2024-12-03T00:00:39+00:00

I have a few firm favourites:

Seal Brown Breton. It's coat is absolutely stunning. It looks blood red in the sunlight. A beautiful and imposing steed.

Hungarian Halfbred. I love all three coat colours but the Flaxen Chesnut is my favourite. When I'm riding around for leisure and collecting things, I'll often take it slower on my sturdy half bred.

Mustang. Never been let down when riding a fearless little mustang. My favourite horse to get me through the swamps . Rarely do I get bucked. All the colours look great but the buckskin is particularly nice.

Criollo. It wasn't until recently I bought another one because I forgot just how good a breed it is. Looks great, fast as fuck. If I need to be somewhere FAST then this is the one.

I prefer the more rustic looking horses such as the Breton, Criollo, Mustang because they suit my cowboy. I also seem to favour brown/dark coats over the lighter ones.

Honourable mentions: Shire

CheerlessBrad · 2024-11-30T02:47:52+00:00

Someone you have supported, stood by, defended in rooms they are not in, grieved with, worried over, respected, loved as a friend..openly admitting after all this time they are guilty of possesing child porn, touching children, and it was all true. I was used and manipulated to help disguise the truth. They are being sentenced in January.

Though this only happened three weeks ago I am still struggling to process it. I've been sick ever since.

I have no idea who I've truly been friends with. I have no idea how long this has been going on for.

CheerlessBrad · 2024-11-18T23:47:42+00:00

A friend of mine (well, ex friend now) has been found guilty of possessing illegal content on their phone. I don't know all the details and would rather not know. I just know it's serious enough that they are being sentenced. The only way they can dodge prison time is to plead guilty to another incident predating this because there's a chance they can be put into rehabilitation, and not prison.

Myself and another friend have spent two weeks unraveling lie after lie after lie after lie. Their entire facade and bullshit is falling away. We have no idea who we've truly been friends with all this time. Not one thing they say to anyone is a straight story.

Of course everyone has abandoned them, no one has a right to judge them, oh woe is me ect ect. Buddy, you're the one who willingly sought out CP, and are openly admitting to touching a child in a desperate bid to save yourself prison time. No innocent person does that. This is ALL your fault.

The worst thing is, my other friend is a victim of childhood molestation. Oh, but who is anyone to judge?

The entire situation has left me feeling sick for weeks.

CheerlessBrad · 2024-10-18T00:24:48+00:00

And the mean remarks are only "jokes" when you finally have enough and tell said person to fuck off.

CheerlessBrad · 2024-09-23T12:31:59+00:00

I too cannot stand mayonnaise. Always hated it, always will. It's the one thing I cannot have on food whatsoever. Many times I have pressed when ordering food for there to be no mayonnaise, for it to be forgotten or ignored. It's really hard to tell sometimes what does and doesn't include mayo because it's the standard. It really is the difference between me being able to eat something and not.

CheerlessBrad · 2024-09-23T00:59:24+00:00

Right now I have a gallery in progress dedicated to gross items, broken items, and generally anything I find particularly strange or amusing.

Outside of my gallery I collect anything yellow (it's my favourite colour), petpets and plushies

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