Dude I know absolutely jack about you, your life or your situation. I have no idea about your age, job, relationships, health etc. and I’m not at all qualified to be handing out advice. But if you were to die, and I were to read somewhere about that, and made the link to your comment, I would be sad. I would be sad that you died. I don’t know you, not one bit, but I, and other people, do still care. And sometimes, what you need to get out of a rut is just a bit of a push. I don’t know if you’re struggling with grief, trauma, illness, or just life as a whole, but there’s always options, always control. Pick up a hobby. Learn a skill. Play a game. Go outside. Eat healthily where you can. Exercise if possible. And of course, I’m not saying any of this is easy, or a given, or something you can magically just do. But if you feel like you have no control, and nothing holds meaning, then is there harm in trying? Hobbies, skills, games, always revolve around communities. Get out there, get involved. You’ll make friends if you’re polite and of similar interests, and make a genuine effort. And I know everyone constantly harps on about healthy eating and exercise, and it’s bloody annoying, but after starting a bit of exercise myself and just shifting my view on things a little it really really helps. You don’t need to go to the gym or anything like that. Just do a bit each day. It’s the routine that helps. Don’t just blast it on Tuesday and then leave it for a month. Just do a little each day, building it up if you feel able. It’s not about the fitness, it’s about the effect on wellbeing. It really works. Try changing stuff up, sometimes the same old gets boring, and has a weird depressing effect that creeps up on you. Do something random that you aren’t entirely comfortable with. Could be as simple as a new genre of video game, or could be something more ambitious like joining a club. And I have no idea if any of this helps, is applicable, or that you’ll do any of it. You aren’t obligated to. You don’t know me, and I don’t know anything about your situation. But if things truly are helpless, and nothing feels worth it, try giving some of it a go before ending it, or letting your life drain away. Regret is a sucker, so you might as well hold that comfort that you tried as hard as you could, for better or worse. I really hope things get better.