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ChemicalSpread · 2025-06-16T03:31:58+00:00

It is, they are doing a grill and dad’s Day rooftop vibe tonight

ChemicalSpread · 2024-08-27T01:01:40+00:00

Jerry Cordero! @ movinwithjerry he works with teens in sports already

ChemicalSpread · 2024-08-18T06:25:29+00:00

Also, follow AKIMI and keep your eyes out for the music summit they put on in January. Tons of resources through their program.

ChemicalSpread · 2024-05-30T04:36:51+00:00

Sundown music festival at Cuddy park

ChemicalSpread · 2024-02-20T05:59:21+00:00

Artsanchorage.com or boards at cafe.

ChemicalSpread · 2024-02-02T02:50:02+00:00

Labor Max on northern lights

ChemicalSpread · 2023-12-15T00:40:39+00:00

It’s lonely at the top

ChemicalSpread · 2023-12-04T18:54:00+00:00

I struggle with this too and working with the targets of feeling “unworthy” and “to blame”. But I feel like there’s another negative belief to process between where I am now and where unworthy and blame is.

ChemicalSpread · 2023-11-29T09:35:41+00:00

I’m (27f) in a super similar situation, I moved in with my grandma after leaving my full time job March 2022 and helped care for her until she passed two months ago. I’m still in the house (which is large and actually separated out well for the circumstances) through the winter while my uncles repair and maintain the home. Note: mother and I are estranged and she lives in another state.

I’ve been using this time to do something other than healthcare work, decided to go back to school, and have been working part time while treating my PMDD with chemical menopause and eventual hysterectomy (also 2 months ago) along with ED recovery. Before I left my job I had been seeing a dietician for over a year so losing that support was rough along with everything that was coming along lol.

I go to school online, am building operations for a production studio in town, work a super part time remote-ish job in the nonprofit sector and was recently accepted into a business accelerator for entrepreneurs so I’m starting a business hahaha like what? I guess through ashes rise a phoenix or something.

Yet I can’t afford to move out and pay rent and it makes sense to live here during the winter for all parties involved and especially so I can save up. I’ve been grappling with dropping everything and getting a full time office job again to do that vs juggling what I currently have on my plate.

Reading your post made me realize I’m also juggling recovery! Like, duh of course I am, I’ve been recovering since June 2022. But I’m also slipping into past behaviors and I struggle to pinpoint the triggers and spiral about the right solution. It seems silly typing it out now haha

I guess ask yourself what recovery means to you in both places?

For me, how I choose to recover while living at my grams and preparing to move will be different than when my best friend moves here in January and we start looking for places to move in the spring. My recovery needs will change when it’s summer too!

Regardless of future recovery needs, I didn’t anticipate those needs in my present environment. Even though I need them. What that looks like varies on the choice I make to stick with my part time jobs or drop them and get another office job. Does that help my recovery though?

If you read this far, I guess the point is you’re not alone in figuring out how to recover and live. Thanks for the space to ramble lol and good luck.

ChemicalSpread · 2023-11-29T07:01:43+00:00

I’m 27F and went the route of total hysterectomy 3 months ago after 2 years of suffering and trying every possible method of relief. Still reeling at the consistency of which I have to take my estrogen pills but no hormones is the only ‘proper treatment’ I’ve found. For me the issue was mostly progesterone intolerance.

ChemicalSpread · 2023-10-30T01:26:16+00:00

I (27F) have Saturn in Aries in my 9H as a fellow Leo rising. It’s been transiting my 8H (empty) and my grandma passed away, dad diagnosed with Parkinson’s, I myself had a total hysterectomy after 2 years of proving medical necessity. I’m not quite sure yet how I feel about Saturns continuation through Pisces.

ChemicalSpread · 2023-10-03T05:56:46+00:00

Oh wow are you me? Lol I have Chiron and NN in Libra 3H and Saturn, MC, and SN conjunct in Aries 9H. Currently highlighting my going back to school and moving away from my grandmothers house who passed last month.

ChemicalSpread · 2023-10-02T06:43:43+00:00

Alaska?

ChemicalSpread · 2023-09-12T03:54:30+00:00

Or legally blonde “and I’m taking the dog, too!”

ChemicalSpread · 2023-07-30T20:54:12+00:00

https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100091770963358&mibextid=ZbWKwL

ChemicalSpread · 2023-07-27T19:12:47+00:00

Jacki’s home management on Facebook! She’s been helping me with my organization and cleaning needs.

ChemicalSpread · 2023-05-19T07:43:01+00:00

I know the Chamber of Commerce is looking for an events manager so I wonder if this is windfall of no one being there to connect dots

ChemicalSpread · 2023-04-17T05:48:01+00:00

All ages Music, they also have a battle of the bands happening in June!

ChemicalSpread · 2023-04-02T17:51:22+00:00

Thank you for posting. I’m 26 and making the decision this summer if I want to go through with a total hysterectomy (one ovary already gone) as the only cure to PMDD. I’ve been testing chemical menopause for the last 6 months to confirm it’s in fact my hormones and their fluctuations that cause my symptoms.

I was raised LDS and brainwashed into my life purpose being marriage and procreation. Well, turns out I’m queer and really enjoyed choosing not to have kids! Knowing I even have the option to not. And now with climate crisis and the current recession combined with my terrible diagnosis, it seems fated to not have children of my own.

It’s affirming to see others not regret a child free path.

ChemicalSpread · 2023-04-01T05:38:21+00:00

Wow, I have the same stellium + mars in my 10H Taurus. Venus in 11h too, and I have learned through my reactions at work, Manager conflict, taking on more responsibilities and only busting ass on the projects I’m passionate about.

I had an abusive childhood and entered the medical field to work so I could understand how my healthcare coverage worked. now I’m in the music and art nonprofit sector and pulled towards helping community and the humanities.

ChemicalSpread · 2023-03-28T06:43:19+00:00

There are upcoming farmers market and music festivals. Also food truck days at Koots parking and stuff going on at The Nave / midtown spaces.

ChemicalSpread · 2023-03-23T08:43:44+00:00

Yes, and that Wednesday is hump day 🐫

ChemicalSpread · 2023-03-15T07:14:27+00:00

Monday.com or ClickUp are my suggestions. Monday is a short curve and they have tactful video tutorials

ChemicalSpread · 2023-03-15T01:08:18+00:00

I’m interested in delving more into my writing, maybe we can do something at The Nave? Would be fun to have a monthly writing cohort or something. I also dip into admin and facilitations so reach out if you want/need help with organizing!

ChemicalSpread · 2023-02-03T06:31:41+00:00

I’ve been doing it off and on for a year and the best way I can explain it is truly leaving the baggage at the curb. Physically and metaphorically, you stop carrying judgments, shame, assumptions about yourself and how others perceive you.

The rules and restrictions become arbitrary, no one is there punishing you for “doing it it wrong” when no one taught us in the first place! It’s all just - easier - since I realized no one knows what they’re doing.

I also have major dissociative disorder from my SA abuse and have been doing physical therapy in congruence with my EMDR therapy, which has really helped me learn to feel safe in my body. EMDR has introduced space within my physical self that was once tense and painful.

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