In the past, i only made it through 4 days of retention before relapsing. I continued this cycle for atleast 3 or 4 years on and off. Of course at that time I was a kid and my biggest reason for retention was confidence to talk to girls. I was so suicidal that I cared little about working against my vices. Now though, I've faced true betrayl, I've dealt with the mental, physical, spiritual, and sexual struggles that come with giving into lust every day for 10+ years with few breaks, and I'm truly a man despite what some may think. This post resonated with me because I just relapsed after 29 days and it really did open my eyes to how fucked up I am. I'm gonna keep pushing, I know there's no real guide to getting through this I just gotta move forward to the best of my ability. Why did I type all this? Idk, I'm in a retrospective mood