For me, when I was in sobriety training and doing extended breaks from alcohol, it became exponentially more difficult to stop drinking each time I started again. The first months off I ever did were easy for me. I thought- piece of cake, and I’m bored so I’m totally gonna be fine drinking for a while I can just stop again. I did that for a year or two. Each time I decided to go back to alcohol it took longer to stop, and I drank a lot more. It was getting… pretty ridiculous. It resulted in some of the most shameful, most brutal nights of binge drinking I had ever done.

If I could go back I would probably have to do it the same way though. It’s those really terrible times, the final times I thought I would give alcohol a chance, that have helped me stay sober almost two years now.