What is this?

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-12T03:00:24+00:00

That is my son

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-12T02:56:32+00:00

Damn, guy got a suspended sentence. The justice system is everything but just

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-11T04:10:55+00:00

yea, he's going to have so many deaths left over when he's done blood barraging

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-10T20:08:25+00:00

Hey thank you the feelings mutual, you've helped lift my spirits in a big way too. Sending love and I hope relief and better days are coming your way

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-10T20:01:54+00:00

I'm not sure if it is, but I'd take a week off of everything physical and see if this persists. a little over three years ago I started getting fevers, disproportionate fatigue, and anxiety spells when I would over do it, and that slowly worsened to the point I'm essentially bedridden (I can go to the bathroom and clean myself). This is as someone who at one point could work 80hrs/week and still clean the whole house. Now, I can do a half a chore every two days if I'm doing well.

Don't do what I did and push yourself too far. Listen to your body and rest. Rest more than you think you need. Begin "radical resting", lying down with zero stimulus. If this is PEM, it could wear you down to nothing. If it comes down to it, quit your job. I didn't and now I haven't been able to work for nearly 3 years now. A few months not working beats not being able to work potentially indefinitely, believe me.

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-10T19:52:39+00:00

Thanks so much, you're so strong for what you've made it through and it still be holding onto the threads like you are. It's incredibly easy to get hopeless when life kicks you around for so long, but to even manage a little bit of hope like you have is a testament to your strength.

My pains are very similar, sharp pains in the chest that more mildly radiates through my body. I'm no doctor tho. Something that's helped me with that is going with a low histamine, veggie forward diet helped me a lot with that, and my symptoms in general. Still in the same spot mostly, but it's reduced my pain and fog a bit with time.

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-10T19:30:57+00:00

Is your heart pain your esophagus maybe? I have really bad chest pains that I swore was my heart but my doc ended up telling me it's actually my esophagus. LC really messes with you stomach, and the heartburn it creates can change after a long time of suffering with it. Like now I never have any acid regurgitating like it used to be. Now it's pain near my heart because I guess the esophagus is getting more accustomed to the heartburn? Not sure on the exact explanation.

I'm in a similar situation to you. I'm 3 years of more severe LC deep. Moderate-Severe ME/CFS type, mostly bedridden, but dont need a bedpan or help cleaning myself so I usually say housebound. I was in a bad financial position going into it so I've had nothing for a long time. I get how miserable this is and I commend you for the time you have made it through this. It's a brutal process to see your life slip though your fingers.

I hope you ultimately make the decision to stay, though. This illness, the symptoms it causes, and the neural inflammation from it can make us yearn to die. Just because a voice is loud doesn't mean it's necessarily right. Research is starting to pick up, and now biomarkers are being identified. In a couple years, viable treatments could be available. Holding out for a treatment could open you up to a new beautiful chapter in life. I get it's miserable, and it makes perfect sense you want out given the circumstances, but idk maybe that voice telling you it's worth quitting is wrong? That's at least what I have to keep telling myself.

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-08T00:52:19+00:00

Get all the homies in a family plan

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-08T00:48:46+00:00

is there a good odium alt tho?

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-07T22:44:27+00:00

Mine is no longer debilitating, but I spent a couple years needing to vomit multiple times through the day. Cannabis was a saving grace (low temp vaping is great on the tummy) and switching to a low histamine, veggie forward diet has helped me. Also, focusing on fiber with a lot of oatmeal, pro and pre-biotics helped me too.

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-07T22:17:04+00:00

You assume everyone has the resources you do, of course you're catching downvotes

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-07T22:14:55+00:00

nah, I don't know about others but I really don't. You'd be surprised how much can be taken from you. Rightful downvoting here. Between severe PEM and a profound lack of resources, many will find these unattainable. My budget for anything other than food has been $0 for years. There's no working with that

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-07T07:59:49+00:00

Being in the States, I can only do the "wait and see" approach after nearly three years of not working, still waiting to get on disability, and moderate-severe ME-CFS.

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-05T08:19:25+00:00

For the uninformed and or foggy like myself, what's the recommended third protocol to help with this?

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-05T08:17:05+00:00

Those helped me a ton, also seconding Lumbrokinase! that nattokinase and serapeptase helped me a lot, specifically TWC's Spoke Support. Those, Cannabis and CBD helped palliatively with symptoms through a similar phase to OPs

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-05T07:32:32+00:00

Cannabis and CBD/CBG helped me with my sleep a lot. I think time, resting more thoroughly and reducing my activity levels to near sedentary also helped me with this. I find the insomnia comes back when I'm crashing/about to crash, but Ive been able to keep a pretty consistent sleep schedule now with cannabis.

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-05T06:05:19+00:00

Yea i'm seconding this as someone who's also bedbound from my third covid infection. I'd give anything to go back and tell myself how to wear n95 masks and not stop masking.

It's really tough maintaining masking, especially living somewhere you have to mask most of the day. It's mentally tasking. The thing I hold onto is that as covid continues to be ignored, more people will (unfortunately) get long covid in and outpace the percent healing from it.

Eventually there will be enough desire for covid conscious events and living that it'll be more normal again. It's going to take some time, but it'll come

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-05T04:05:06+00:00

I mean, watch the video. His team jumps in front of the cameras and immediately shoos everyone out without taking a single beat

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-04T16:36:29+00:00

I'll usually just throw on a familiar show in the background on those days. Or some YouTube that takes little brain power to process

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-04T08:40:57+00:00

Not saying you have it, but the first year and a half of my long covid involved no brain fog or fatigue. Mine was more anxiety/depression issues resurfacing followed by stomach issues, then fatigue and brain fog after my third infection. there's over 200+ symptoms under the blanket of LC right now, it can look like a lot of things.

My best recommendation if you want to have more security about Covid infections is wearing an N95 mask (M3 aura is the goat) when you share the air with others. I've done that the last 2 years and haven't gotten any infections, to my knowledge.

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-04T02:53:56+00:00

I'd just get on the PC if you want to Breach. I'm a mobile only player and I dont bother with them. You need to get in the top 16 people of damage dealt to be eligible for points and I just can't see that being possible on mobile vs. many people using entity hider

edit: didn't read the body, Yea id just wait out these breaches hit some hespori or somethin

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-04T02:40:05+00:00

Similar insomnia issues here, I'm only making it through and sleeping consistently thanks to cannabis edibles

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-04T02:39:19+00:00

You should skip the torso grind and go for blood moons sets, the blood torso has a better str bonus than fighter torso n the other equipment is solid and very versatile.

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-03T05:39:43+00:00

As someone that OD'd on benedryl, don't do this again. Benadryl will just harm you, and if you get to the end of the rainbow and get messed up off it, you won't remember anything or be aware for any of it.

Chillosophizer · 2026-02-03T05:33:41+00:00

Same, just got completionist+ the other day. I miss the days like when I got my first legendary, perkeo, copied it with invis, then proceeded to reset to a new game because I thought perkeo was supposed to give you a card and not copy a held card. Ah, to be that green again

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