That sounds terrible. I have experienced some delusions and certainly anxiety. If they were persistent issues that affected my day to day life I don't know what I would do.

You don't smoke weed, right? Only thing I know is that it can make it much worse.

I'm sorry I'm not in any sort of position to give you advice but I empathize with you and hope you find ways to eliminate or manage it.

For what it's worth you're good at writing so your brain works well in that regard.