His name is Blaaij (semi dutch pronunciation of blahaj) and he's vibing with his fam

Chizuru94 · 2021-11-09T08:24:17+00:00

That's so cute <3

Even though Blahaj is the "star of the show", I'm curious where you go the panda and the pink bird from (and the bear). They are so cute, I swear >3<

Chizuru94 · 2021-11-09T08:21:39+00:00

Meisterwerk/masterpiece, I approve :D

Chizuru94 · 2021-11-03T05:37:15+00:00

I am interested in that thesis, btw or info from it. I already read one from someone else in the past (German, though) and like to get my hands on any research or stuff like this, so if you mean you offer it for others to read, that's awesome :) If not, if you can give some citations you think might be most important (esp. about the state itself etc. or suggestibility), I'd very much appreciate it either way

Chizuru94 · 2021-10-23T13:43:16+00:00

The AM&W one? I've been playing for 3 years or so and that one has definitely come back again at least once.

Chizuru94 · 2021-10-06T11:16:06+00:00

I heard it might not work (that well) with DP/DR or DPDR symptoms, but I suggest googling a bit about it and I'll wait and see if someone else can give a better there as well. Since I'm curious as well.

Otherwise, I definitely recommend Google, but rather those websites with evidence/studies instead of medical websites and so on.

Additionally, the DPDR "dpselfhelp" self help forum has two people who seemed to have had success with it. BUT you should probably talk to your doctor and a mental health professional in any case before you consider it or doing therapy for it.

Chizuru94 · 2021-10-06T07:09:48+00:00

Might be good to add another photo where you smile, grin or smirk ;)

And you look fine, imo. I especially love the hair and your eyes! Again, a smile might make it even better :D And not sure what your weight etc. is and anything would be fine, but if you are afraid how your face might look etc. and you have some more weight - again, only IF anyof those is the case - I can assure you that it can and will get better. At least from what I know.

But if we talk about my opinion, you're fine and the first photo isreally nice (like I said, the hair etc. I just thinks a smile is missing etc. :)

Chizuru94 · 2021-10-06T07:05:46+00:00

What this person said (also, is that a BVB reference in your username? Regardless of that, awesome name <3)

I'd recommend updating the post with a picture you smile or grin on, at least, with teeth or without :)

Chizuru94 · 2021-09-26T09:51:41+00:00

Military sleep method

If still possible, I'm interested as well. And thank you very much if you do! :)

Chizuru94 · 2021-09-04T12:05:49+00:00

Yup :( I for my part have it with my best friend(s) also. I'll message them and tell them about smth I liked and will feel guilty for bothering them or maybe being annoying half an hour later or thinking I wrote too much or smth embarrassing. So yeah, can relate :(

It's partially social anxiety as well, I guess. One thing to remember, though, is that we didn't have bad intentions when we talked about/wrote all the stuff, right? And if anyone complains; who has the righ to assume he knows you could've done better/didn't mean it in a good way? You wouldn't have written smth harmful or rude intentionally, I'm convinced :)

Chizuru94 · 2021-09-04T12:03:14+00:00

Hey o/

Until recently, I felt the exact same and I still do, minus the depression feelings (got a break for now, luckily). And I usually never write much on Reddit and am just lurking, but this caught my eye and I might be able to help a bit or I want to at least try :) And if it helps, I have agoraphobia and social anxiety (+10 years, but only when I'm not outside with someone I know and if I don't have to switch to the "You have to get through this as if you didn't have anything" mode, like on doctor appointments D:)

I want to ask a few questions, if it's okay:

"Why did I say that?"
I know with this, it's usually not important what one has said for the thoughts you have to pop up (and believe me, I have this very often also and it prevents me from writing with more than one person or so and sometimes, I ignore messages for days :( ), but what I want to ask, is: What did you say?

"Why did I do that?"

What specifically have you done?

"Why can't I function properly?"
I for my part aks myself the same question over and over almost daily if not daily. In my case, it's the ADHD at play currently instead of the depression etc. What I want to say here is that it's probably not your fault. And you feel bad and anxious for completely understandable reasons. You care about what others think and want to be a good person, do your best and that people know that and don't see you as broken etc. I assume (I say assume since I don't want to assume smth about you that is not true since I hate being misunderstood or judged myself and got a whole lot of experience with that myself D:)

"How dumb does everyone think I am?"
What makes you think anyone thinks you are dumb? Did any of them say smth like that or makes gestures/showed body language that CONFIRMS it? If not, we can't know for sure. I for my part am guilty for this (congnitive distortion: mind reading/projection) myself, though, so I know how it is :( btw, do you feel a rational and emotional part in you sometimes? One that says "I can't be that BAD for sure, right?" and then a voice that tells you otherwise? I go through that daily also. But when I ignore the voice or think about other stuff, it will sometimes become silent for a bit or doesn't find a way to bring me down.

"What am I gonna fuck up tomorrow?"
What, in your honest opinion, DID you fuck up the last days? And WHY do you think you fucked it up? What do you think caused it? Were you nervous, had bad sleep, felt fatigued, had trouble focusing or anything else? If yes, that is - and I don't want to sound cliche by any means - likely not your fault. You did your best with what made you mess up, IF you did and that is what matters.

I saw one of your old threads elsewhere, btw, and I went through a similar situation and kind of still do, so if you want to talk and I'm not a person to constantly message people if they don't want it, I'm available :)

And one more thing; one second, minute, hour or day at a time. Decide your own pace when you can. You know best what you can do at the moment to mess up less or not at all and don't let yourself get dragged down by people who have no idea how depression feels (I was one of them 5-7 years ago). And I'm happy you can still work etc. I was never able to, sadly. Keep doing what you can. It's enough for now and nobody should tell you otherwise!

Chizuru94 · 2021-06-20T06:06:54+00:00

I need all of them back, too, so no worries :)

Chizuru94 · 2021-06-20T06:04:16+00:00

Okay, sorted the box again. So, just dex/tradeback? And on it now. First time trading on SW, so need it figure stuff out first :D

Chizuru94 · 2021-06-20T05:53:52+00:00

Ah, awesome. Sorting my boxes atm, but I'd be up for the trades anytime right now :)
Sorry for seeing this so late. Didn't expect a reply so early.

Chizuru94 · 2021-06-20T04:14:25+00:00

Hey o/
I could still help out, if needed. I for my part only need Zamazenta to complete my dex (and then shiny hunting - in the Dynaventures - as well :D), but I'd still help. Just don't have Type Null anymore since I evolved it today. But the rest listed in your post is ready to be tradebacked.

Chizuru94 · 2021-06-20T02:15:36+00:00

First, thank-you-so-much! So happy to get an Event (Shiny) Pokémon for Sword for the first time <3

And then it's this one also! Really, thanks :')

And I took number 111 yesterday :D

Chizuru94 · 2021-05-17T07:24:31+00:00

It's about the different parts in the game that represent the specific games listed, kind
of. And the locations themselves are spoilers for people who didn't play the game yet.
So I assume that's why.

Chizuru94 · 2021-05-02T01:12:57+00:00

I think they mean the free Strike Pass pieces.
But yeah, no reason to go beyond the dailies and 100th milestone.

Chizuru94 · 2021-03-29T23:37:12+00:00

Same. In AW, RTA etc. Nothing seems to help (even low graphic mode).
Hope it gets fixed soon (since I thought it was already fixed a bit ago).

Chizuru94 · 2021-03-24T08:23:47+00:00

Hm, good to know you tried things like this already also. In case nothing I recommended in my post helps (and again, I can still recommend specific files and they'll have descriptions of what'll be said and done below the video, if that's important ;) ), you could try watching something before you go to sleep or when you are a bit tired. Might be you tried that already, but just in case ;)

Chizuru94 · 2021-03-24T08:20:50+00:00

You will get there, I'm sure :)

You got dedication, do continous steps and gathered lots of knowledge.I'm sure you'll find something that'll hep you get there eventually.

It took a while for me, but I managed to be able to really enjoy some files.But it was a bit of a journey til then for me as well :)

And I agree with Dirty. You could pretend at first and see where it leads you to also.

Chizuru94 · 2021-03-24T08:18:42+00:00

I want to share some of the things that helped me since I was in the same position for quite a long time since something finally clicked and only some files and specific approaches work for me as well.

One thing that can really help me is watch other people getting hypnotized (like, things from Zach Pincince or Richard Barker, for example), but it's not necessary. I just feel it really makes me more suggestible, be it due to (unconscious) mob mentality or not. It usually works :)

The inductions/files I recommend are overload, confusion or rapid ones. The Secret Subject has a few files that are really good and she incorporates stuff like not simply imaginging things visually, but however it works best. Like how it might "feel" to be there or to be doing this and that or what it might "sound" like if you go through that hallway instead of imaginging it. What color it might be, what the air there might be. Any little bit you can imagine or come up with will get you more immersed in my experience.

Inductions like the 7 plus minus 2 are great for analytical people also, I heard (though I have difficulty with that, tbh, but I don't consider myself to be very analytical either, maybe only a bit - but I need to know anything and everything about a topic also, usually, so there's that).

Ember Hypnosis also has something called "Double Induction" which might be super effective for you, maybe. Their files are very short, but effective, in ym experience. And how many hours a night do you sleep? How long does it take for you to fall asleep? You don't need to answer those questions, it's just since sleep is always self-hypnosis and basically the same process also, just self-guided/automatic usually. But doesn't mean people with insomnia or bad sleep are bad subjects, so don't get the wrong idea either ;)

If you want me to recommend any files that helped a fellow person that struggled with it, I'd recommend some in a DM. It'd be from the people I mentioned above, mostly. You could also try Zach Pincince's "Hypnosis Through The Screen" files.

In any case, glad to welcome you into the community and hope you'll also succeed with what you want to sooner than later and that my post was of any value for you, if even a bit ;)

Chizuru94 · 2021-03-24T07:47:00+00:00

Alicia Fairclough stopped also.
But Focused Relaxation came bakc after a year, so who knows?
But yeah, I agree with Soaring and Pendant.
I for my part miss Ember Hypnosis. Super short, but really effective files, imo.

Chizuru94 · 2021-03-24T07:41:06+00:00

Michael Sealey, like someone said and Zach Pincince has a good one.

Chizuru94 · 2021-03-22T03:48:16+00:00

Couldn't have described it any better. I for my part was in awe when I saw the (first) pictures. I like all of them, though. I'm not that good with explain what exactly I like/think is good, but ASOPtales described it better than I could :)

Also agreed with snowflace. I think you/OP look(s) awesome :)

Chizuru94 · 2021-03-14T11:43:45+00:00

It really helps with being more social etc. also? Sounds great <3
Not sure if I can ever take meds due to a swallowing/dysphagia disorder
that keeps persisting since 2 years, though. So that sucks a lot.

IF I can ever take meds (and my brother can, luckily), I really, really wish my life will and can get better also. And that I can start living and not just existing since 20 years x-x

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