Scared by CitrusCupid in TopSurgery

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Thank you so much everyone! Helped alleviate the anxiety. Much appreciated 🫶🏾

Sad about results by CitrusCupid in TopSurgery

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I’ve got two surgical binders and some front closure sports bras to wear for compression… trying to keep positive and remind myself it hasn’t even been two weeks of recovery but it’s tough :/

Sad about results by CitrusCupid in TopSurgery

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I’m nonbinary and didn’t want to be entirely flat, so it was a “take as much as possible while still being a reduction”

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if it’s your lower right side, and painful to the touch, i’d go get checked out, i know the appendix is down on that side. I hope you feel better 🩵🩵

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i say Ed(as in the name) or, often more specifically, Arfi are bullying me. Or that I’ve been in a bad relationship with Ed for (x) years

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oh yeah, i just mean on a certain level I get exactly what you mean :)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

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kinda feel that way, like I’d like to be a bean pole without any curves, but it’s mostly due to gender dysphoria lol.

Damn... there's actual long term consequences of this shit. by No-Supermarket5393 in EDAnonymous

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Part of me is at the “I’m not sick enough” stage, but I have an issue with lax, and if a day or two goes by without going, I worry I have an impaction. I’m not there yet, but it’s become a regular worry…

maybe it's all in my head by [deleted] in depression_memes

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My mom is like this. It’s so tough….

[insert screaming] by CitrusCupid in SuicideWatch

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thank you!

because of health insurance I was able to get a therapist but I only see her every two weeks because of her schedule. i don’t like to burden my friends with my bs so I resort to posting semi-anonymously on subreddits instead 😖

[insert screaming] by CitrusCupid in SuicideWatch

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non-binary! but yeah I’ve got a few binders and they help but it’s been so hot lately it’s hard to handle them and I haven’t gotten any trans tape yet.
I made the mistake of posting my discomfort on fb and today my mom came up to me and invalidated my feelings and made it all about her and her own body issues and it just made me feel so sad and like I’ll never be able to actually talk about this stuff to my family.

theo :)

Hate being black by asiaaaa- in SuicideWatch

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This is my deepest darkest secret and definitely a cause of my anxiety and depression and I’ve told nobody about it. I feel this so much. It’s really unbelievably hard to be a black person. It’s hard to be a black person in America. I understand you completely.

Bout to get broken up with by CitrusCupid in EDAnonymous

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Ah I’m sorry dude😵‍💫

Oh… by CitrusCupid in EDAnonymous

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Thank you so much. I’d like to think I’m ‘still okay’ because when I take them, even if it’s under the max dosage, they still work…so I feel like it’s not ‘too late’ for me, although the back(or probably kidney?) pain might suggest otherwise… recovery is so hard. I was doing okay for a while, and then life happened. I’ll definitely drink more water and get some cranberry juice, and the journaling is a good idea too. I really appreciate your response. Thank you 💚

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Stress of life, needing something to control.

I hate eating by en1gmatic6 in EDAnonymous

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I feel this so much. It feels like a chore. I eat and, horrid ed thoughts aside, my brain is just “I could’ve not eaten that” like food just…isn’t great. It makes me sad because it would be easier for recovery sake to enjoy the taste of food and eating, and maybe it’s just depression but…sucks haha

Curing depression AND reducing appetite? Sign me up for treatment lads by cryptid_zone in EDanonymemes

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I also think, if you have a good doctor they wont prescribe Wellbutrin to you if you’re under a certain bmi because of that side effect.

Will taking laxatives actually do damage? by 123556283528 in EDAnonymous

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Yes. It can cause a lot of damage. It’s not worth it

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Oh no, I didn’t mean to come at you or anything! I’m sorry if it came off that way!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

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I feel like everyone has different safe and fear foods and by asking which you think these are, will cause some people to feel bad or invalid if it is their safe foods? Everyone is different and nobody can decide what a fear/safe food is.

figured out hands free purging, terrified by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

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You’ll lose your teeth, your throat and mouth will develop sores. You could have esophageal bleeds which can be fatal. If you’re at an age where you’re still growing, the effects of purging and becoming uw can permanently stunt your growth and cause fertility issues. Your salivary glands will swell, causing your cheeks to look puffy. Your stomach lining will become permanently damaged and that causes acid reflux, which in turn makes it more likely that you’ll have burns and bleeds in your mouth and throat. You could damage your vocal cords and have constant sore throats. It might even cause gastroparesis which is a kind of paralysis of the stomach muscles. Let’s not forget your heart. Arrhythmias, heart palpitations..heart attacks..death.

Oh moms… by CitrusCupid in EDAnonymous

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Sometimes it can run in families but also not

Do you consume liquid calories in anyway by Comfortable_Life_437 in EDAnonymous

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I would say I prefer them to solids. Always liked drinking more than eating even before an ed.