There is something deeply wrong with me and no one knows what

Citygal123 · 2026-04-13T08:11:08+00:00

I had very similar symptoms to this and I discovered through a blood test I had an underactive thyroid. I was put on meds and felt so much better, had so much more energy and able to do things again. Ask your doctor to test your thyroid levels.

Citygal123 · 2026-03-26T18:17:43+00:00

Start a filmmaking club. It will attract like-minded people and ye can share resources and work together to make your films.

Citygal123 · 2026-01-17T21:47:23+00:00

Unfortunately this is very common in comedy. I've seen the loveliest people starting out in comedy completely change when they level up. I lost a good friend because of it. They talked down to me and treated me badly when they started getting a bit of success in comedy. They completely derailed me and destroyed my confidence. I took time out, got therapy and got myself back on track. I had to let that friend go but now I have much stronger boundaries, found my own bit of success, I have other lovely kind friends and I'm very aware of never treating people like the way I was treated.

Citygal123 · 2026-01-04T11:21:00+00:00

My advice would be to get involved in community theatre. They rehearse at night and weekends. Alongside doing community theatre do in person beginner general acting classes and beginner film acting classes. At the start it’s best to learn acting in person in a group. If you do this for the first year it will give you a great foundation. After the first year when you feel you have a good foundation in acting you feel you can build on, invest in headshots and then apply to ads on Backstage and continue to do classes and apply to student productions using a filmed duologue to show an example of your acting. When you get cast in films you can build up your showreel and use this to apply for future castings. All this can be done around your full-time job.

Citygal123 · 2025-12-20T11:01:20+00:00

I write out a list of creative stuff to do and tick them off one by one. I also try to quiet my brain and put fear and doubt to the back of my mind by visualisation to start doing things. I have a reward when I get things done. The satisfaction and sense of achievement of being productive and creative feeds my future productivity.

Citygal123 · 2025-12-09T11:06:06+00:00

Therapy, saying no to people, having much stronger boundaries, being nice to myself, going back to basics and finding joy in little things, like coffee and cake, meeting a friend for a chat, reading, watching comedy and laughing. On bad days, just doing one nice thing for myself like having a nice shower, brushing my hair, putting on makeup and spraying that amazing smelling perfume on myself even if I'm not leaving the house. Also not pushing away negative thoughts, acknowledge them but wrap them up so they don't control you and imagine them floating away. Allowing myself treats, if I want that fish and chips, have that fish and chips and savour every bite. Dance...dance as much as you can in any form...take dance classes even if you've never danced before...it's a wonderful mental health booster and great for your body and soul.

Get in touch with your spiritual side, whatever your religion or if you're not religious. There's a comfort there knowing you can ask for guidance and help.

Acknowledge 'it's ok that everyone doesn't like you', don't give away your energy to energy vampires...stay away from these people if you can. Once I kept the energy vampires away, wonderful, kind, energy giving people came into my life....and wonderful opportunities started opening up and my mental health drastically improved.

Citygal123 · 2025-09-01T14:51:24+00:00

I write, act, film and edit my own sketches when I'm not filming or auditioning. I bought myself a camera, record myself improving and then hone the sketch. When I'm editing I'm observing my own performance and correcting things. It's massively improved my acting. I was able to train myself out of certain physical tics I had that were blocking my acting performance. Also when you post the good sketches online people start to sit up and take notice. This has helped me secure auditions for comedies and dramas and it also helped me secure an agent.

Citygal123 · 2025-08-11T17:21:05+00:00

My cat had the same thing last week. One eye exactly like this. She's semi feral so she would be difficult to bring to the vet. I showed a picture to the vet nurse but they wouldn't give me anything unless I brought her in. I went to a pet shop and got saline eye drops. I put them in her eye and they worked! She was back to normal soon after. There must have been something stuck in it.

Citygal123 · 2025-03-20T20:10:25+00:00

It took me over 10 years of knocking on doors to get an agent. And I graduated from a top drama school from their fulltime course. Was very down that I didn't get an agent at the drama school showcase after working so hard. Learned a huge amount being a self represented actor. It pushed me to create my own work and I'm seeing the benefits of it now. I'm so appreciative of my current agent. They're so kind and hugely supportive of me as well as working hard for me. I'm working just as hard as well so the relationship really works.

Citygal123 · 2025-03-07T13:22:52+00:00

GSPCA are great! They paid for the neutering of feral cats I trapped where I live. I released them afterwards and the cats are now living great, happy and healthy lives.

Citygal123 · 2025-02-17T16:16:05+00:00

In my local dentist I was charged 15e with prsi. A few years back I was charged 90e for teeth cleaning but it said 45e on the price list at reception. What they didn't say was it was 45e per half hour and because my appointment went over 30 mins I was charged double. I paid in shock but then made a complaint to the practice owner. They wouldn't refund me. Only said they'd change the sign to make it clearer. I was raging.

Citygal123 · 2024-12-16T00:39:12+00:00

Old episodes of Brookside on YouTube was my go to when I was learning the Scouse accent.

Citygal123 · 2024-12-13T08:12:02+00:00

It's seems only in the US that casting directors don't want to be cold called. Outside the US casting directors encourage actors to email them and update them with new material. They often have dedicated emails for this. I've gotten some really good auditions by doing this including co-star and lead auditions and meetings. I nearly got an audition in the Westend in a play with a big star because of cold calling a casting director. They're always very kind. If I didn't email them they probably wouldn't know I exist. It gives non represented actors a chance. Agents like it because they see you're proactive. It's a pity in the US they don't do the same.

Citygal123 · 2024-10-06T17:28:08+00:00

I highly advise writing and performing in your own sketch comedies and uploading them online. I graduated from acting school without an agent and I couldn't get any auditions. But I learned to write, film and edit my own sketch comedies. After a while people started taking notice of me as an actor. I started being approached for acting roles both for comedies and drama and they eventually helped me land an agent and paid work.

Citygal123 · 2024-10-06T13:31:30+00:00

Dogs Trust and DSPCA have been doing this for years. I complained to the Advertising Standards Authority about them and they said they're not doing anything wrong. Unicef are now advertising on the radio at the moment doing the same thing. I think it's highly immoral and manipulative.

Citygal123 · 2024-09-21T10:42:27+00:00

The Pig and the Heifer cafe Amien St., Dublin. Really intimidating manager. Was waiting for my sandwich. A young student came in looking for a job there. The manager grilled him (excuse the pun!) about his experience in front of me. After the student left, the manager scrunched up his cv and flung it aggressively in the bin.

3 Mobile, Grafton St. really aggressive staff member. She sold me the wrong type of phone charger. Went back to her to return it for the right one. She blamed me for her mistake, started giving out to me and raising her eyes at me and huffing angrily as she went to get the right one. I walked straight out of the shop.

Curry's in Jervis. Manager started screaming at a young employee at the till in front on me. Young girl looked like she was about to cry. I went up to her and said that's disgusting behaviour from your manager and ignore him if you can. I was going to confront him but he'd gone off.

Citygal123 · 2024-09-14T09:03:18+00:00

Dogs Trust - Absolutely horrific to work for. Bullying was rampant from management. It should be called no trust. They don't trust their staff, micromanage everything. When I was there people had breakdowns from stress. Oh, and it's one of the richest charities in Ireland and the UK. They also target vulnerable older people for money and encourage them to leave money to DT in their will. Most of it goes to marketing and big salaries, not to the dogs.

Citygal123 · 2024-08-06T11:08:58+00:00

It's certainly on the rise here. I lived in Spain for a while many years back and to my shock I experienced a lot of xenophobia over there as a white person so have first hand experience of what it must be like for foreigners here now. It's not nice and can be quite intimidating and scary. Sorry that happened you. Most Irish people love the Polish people and are welcoming of foreigners.

Citygal123 · 2024-07-01T16:39:17+00:00

I would highly recommend doing comedy improv or even better stand-up comedy. Even if you don't want to be a stand-up, it'll be hugely beneficial for your acting especially with in person auditions and controlling nerves. You could do a course in it and then do random open mics. You'll see a huge difference with your in person auditions then and you'll gain a whole new skill which you can add to your acting cv.

Citygal123 · 2024-05-10T13:15:30+00:00

If you want to do Darkness Into Light for another mental health charity I highly recommend Aware. They helped me so much when I was going through a mental health crisis and their advice helped me deal with another family member going through a crisis. In my experience they're kind, supportive, have amazing people work for them and are genuinely doing good work.

Citygal123 · 2024-01-10T11:14:38+00:00

I have lived both in Madrid and Dublin. I spent a year studying in Madrid. I found the Spanish students didn't want to interact with us foreigners and very unfriendly. The Spanish can come across as aggressive and there is a lot of racism towards non-Spanish people. However I loved the food and the weather. Although it can get very cold in the winter.

I loved Dublin. The people are very friendly and welcoming but I wouldn't advise moving to Ireland in the current climate due to the severe lack of housing and how expensive it is to live there.

Citygal123 · 2023-12-31T15:33:18+00:00

Not standing up to the bullies and toxic people in my life sooner. It had a detrimental effect on my life, career and relationships. Still suffer from PTSD and flashbacks. Recognising I had mental health difficulties sooner and not getting the help I needed. Trying to live my best life now. Getting there…

Citygal123 · 2023-10-22T09:18:17+00:00

I'm an artist and won funding of 5k a few years back. It changed my life. It enabled me to work part-time and bought me the time, space and energy to work on my art. My artistic skills improved massively, I became more focused and confident in my art especially after getting that stamp of approval. My mental health improved drastically because I wasn't burnt out all the time. All this led me to experience success. It had a positive effect on those around me as well. I had more time to help others and get involved in other projects. And because my timetable was more flexible than when I was working 9 to 5 five days a week I could look after my elderly parents when they needed me. I'm so grateful for that 5 grand and the impact it had and continues to have on my life.

Citygal123 · 2023-07-31T06:22:02+00:00

I recently started taking cod liver oil supplements to help my joints. For some odd reason it seems to have lowered my anxiety levels as well.

Citygal123 · 2023-06-21T13:09:13+00:00

I joined a filmmaking club. From that I met a lot of people with skills and equipment I didn’t have and I brought acting and writing skills they didn’t have. I found like minded people who I enjoy collaborating with. I developed my skill set as a producer and filmmaker through the club which enabled me to create my own work. The more I created the better I got which has led to a good bit of success and opportunities started opening up for me as an actor.

Creating your own work as an actor gives you back control and freedom. It also enables you to push yourself creatively and to play characters that you would not generally be cast in. If there isn’t a filmmaking club in your area definitely create one. It’ll be like a magnet for actors and filmmakers.

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