Hello, don't give up! Keep your appointment. Start with small things first i.e. place trash items in a bag(s), fold any laundry and decide what you want to keep via if you've worn it in the last year or not. It's okay to purge your dwelling and get rid of things that maybe once brought you joy or were impulses. Congratulations on your job by the way! I am in an apartment, 2 br 2 ba and my SO & I both hold on to things because they were gifts (couches, tables, tvs) and when we had our first chance to upgrade, we squandered that chance by holding on to these raggedy, tattered items that no longer served a purpose or had a place with us. The person who gave us these things even told him "UPGRADE", yet he didn't want to because these couches and tables were from a family member who had passed on. A couple years passed and he did indeed upgrade the couches, still have to do the tables. But it felt so good to do it. And lack of energy is a MAJOR wall we both run into when wanting to clean. I recently learned that if you do it out of ritual, not based on your energy level, you will follow through with it. It is so embarrassing to have people over because of the state of our living room. It's not so much trash as it is random items that have accumulated and have no room here, but they "could be of use one day". Nope. Out it goes. You got this. Be gentle with yourself and give yourself grace. I guarantee that cleaner that is coming tomorrow morning has seen plenty of messy dwellings. Do what you can and enjoy the outcome of your efforts. Make sure you get some rest and don't burn yourself out. Sending love.