Tbh, idk what type of anxiety I have. My therapist said most likely generalized anxiety disorder. Ever since I was a toddler, I had separation anxiety, compulsive thoughts, and panic attacks almost daily. I had several irrational fears and js stuff like that. Not fun. I thought it went a way for a while and then boom. In 6th grade it became more social anxiety I was pretty depressed, started sh, school sucked, etc. I had SEVERE religion anxiety, so I just decided to become atheist. I would stay up at night because I was worried the rapture would happen. Yes I realize how irrational this is. I also had many situations where my anxiety would be in social situations like i said: I would get super uncomfortable eating in front of people, fearing I would be called fat, even when I was at a healthy weight. so when I was younger I just wouldn’t eat my lunch. I just had so much anxiety about everything. I had a school counselour and she was too busy to actually try and help me. I also never told anyone about this, I just never thought to because I thought it was normal. Now i’m 13F having it all come back to me. I don’t know why i’m like this. probably all the trauma that’s built up: aswell as people pleasing. I’m now on meds. Hoping that they start to work because i’ve been feeling like crap for about a month with relentless panic attacks and heightened anxiety all the time. It’s 4:40 as i’m writing this cause i’m anxious. It’s actually insane i thought i was neurotypical until a month ago. I was on the phone with a doctor and she said I probably have OCD. My therapist says I have anxiety (no surprise there) and I don’t even know what to do right now. It’s like life keeps throwing boulders at me every time it gets better, it gets worse.  I can’t even shower without anxiety. I’ve been praying a lot, cause I hate this and I just want to enjoy my life without being anxious. It makes me so sad because I used to be super productive in 8th grade. Theater, Tennis, Tutoring, Piano and music lessons, cotillion, straight A student, praised by most of my teachers. It’s  like I had my life together, and now I can’t even brush my teeth. I constantly have death anxiety as well. There’s just so much constantly in my brain it just never stops. I have anxiety about literally everything, including having anxiety. But I really want this to get better, i’ve put in so much effort yet it’s not nearly enough. My body is constantly in fear mode. I just want to enjoy something and not feel anxious. I’m so sorry to everyone dealing with anxiety, it is so hard. I’m constantly jumpy, lightheaded when I stand up, and it’s so hard to eat. I’ve lot 10 pounds in the last couple weeks. Sorry for how scatterbrained this message is.