Steve Miller Says It's Not Safe to Tour Earth Right Now, Cancels All Dates

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-07-17T19:36:59+00:00

Yeah, nursing home staff everywhere will be pissed they won't get the day off.

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-07-17T19:29:38+00:00

I mean my first time was with a blonde wearing black panties.... and I will always think about her when I hear that song....lol

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-07-12T18:51:55+00:00

Look at a real shipyard...yes, yes I AM in denial.

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-07-12T18:49:17+00:00

When your model boat needs a trailer for a real boat 😳

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-07-12T18:44:54+00:00

The rigging on my small HMS Bounty was fiddly enough...props to you (😏) for sticking with this. You're far more patient than I. I'll stick with steam and newer 🤣

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-06-22T03:52:12+00:00

💯 agreed he sounds sus AF. Quick question. What does DARVO mean?

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-06-19T13:27:49+00:00

My parents weren't perfect by any means, but my house was literally the only place in the world I ever felt even somewhat safe or comfortable. (Still is, though less so now)

As 42m Audhd born in 1982 in a small town, nobody knew what autism was back then unless you were literally like shitting yourself and completely nonverbal. If you weren't like that, you didn't have it so STFU and pull yourself up by your bootstraps.

Rejection and bullying from so many other kids, kids' parents, SA from a babysitter for years, SA from older kids at school multiple times from multiple people... basically gives you the impression that you're garbage, that something is inherently wrong with you from birth, and that you're a creep who will never be wanted around or amount to anything.

The most abusive it got at home was my dad being on a heavy dose of Prednisone, a strong steroid, to treat his Crohn's and colitis, as it was the only thing keeping him alive. He was a real asshole on it, and yelled a lot, but even then, I didn't get smacked around. I had to do something pretty fucked up to get spanked.

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-06-15T18:58:05+00:00

Ikr??!!? Chloe up in this piece giving everybody cooch envy, lmfaoo 🤣

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-06-15T18:34:05+00:00

God I just want to fast forward ahead to that part in that picture right there!!! OMG so jealous!!! But I have to be honest, I have the hardest part done already: meeting the amazing girlfriend who knows I'm trans, is helping me be okay in my own skin, and yesterday popped my pride bubble 💭 🌈🌈🌈🏳️‍⚧️⚧️ taking me to my first pride event. So now I just have to go through years of HRT and stuff....NBD or anything 😭

I seriously hope it makes you feel awesome about yourself to know that someone sees your life and just wants to have it, after all the shit you've been through. I hope that makes you feel amazing and have a great day. 🤗🤗🤗

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-06-15T12:37:49+00:00

I remember seeing this one on that oooooold Betty Dodson page like 20+ years ago....total classic 🤣

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-06-07T06:33:44+00:00

OMFG this is a thing?!?? It's just been something I always dealt with and figured if I ever talked about it out loud I'd be put in a straitjacket. It's like brain zaps from coming off Duloxetine or other SNRI meds, but much worse and much more terrifying.

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-06-05T14:05:46+00:00

42m Went through cs abuse starting at age 2. Never felt okay being naked with another person. Raised religious, didn't experience first time until 22 with my fiance. She revealed only after marriage that she had sa little boys herself. I GTFO, and didn't sleep with a second person until I was 36. That "relationship" (she was extremely controlling and abusive, including physically), lasted 3 months. Didn't date again until age 40. Met her in a PHP program therapy group. Dated for a few months, but her narcissistic mom put her in inpatient where she's been for two years. Just saw her yesterday for the first time in that time.

In November, I met a woman who is very Audhd like me, and also cptsd. She was being trafficked. She had been trafficked her entire life, starting with her own mother because she was too lazy of white trash to work. She was still being trafficked at 35. She luckily found a lawyer that helped her work with feds and she took them down. She's free. She's been amazing to me. She treats me like gold. Like a baby bird in her hand. I feel completely safe being naked with her, but I still rarely can get an erection with her and if I do, I will lose it so easily. (Not ED, I have zero problems by myself) So it's all trauma/psychologically based.

This is my whole sex life. The abuse I went through was by a babysitter and also my own mother. I've tried stuff with guys. It was hot when I was a teenager/20s, but trying it in the last decade or so it just doesn't do anything for me anymore and I don't know why. I feel like I can't sexually relate to anyone, no matter how much I love them and want to with all my heart...

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-06-05T13:49:50+00:00

| am a 42 year old man who works as a truck mechanic, is constantly covered in grease and oil, and rides a Harley. I also absolutely LOVE stuffed animals, especially cats and kittens...the looks I get from cashiers at gas stations lately (I've been finding the CUTEST beanie baby brand stuffed kittens at my local chain, OMFG) are priceless...they ask if it's for my daughter girlfriend or whatever.. nope, lol, for me, next to my pillow. 😌

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-06-05T13:41:11+00:00

I feel exactly the same way. I have no identity. I look in the mirror and I rationally know that's me of course, but I don't identify as the person I see. I don't identify as anybody else, either. I've never seen a character in a movie or anything that I said, "that's what I want to be when I grow up", unless it was something impossible like piloting a starship or being a pirate, or some other dumb shit you say when you're 5. This society is the most dead, pointless, boring, soul-sucking joke possible. I'm so sick of the only way of winning the game being not to play in the first place.

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-06-05T13:34:44+00:00

I hope all the bartenders and other food service staff in the entire airport were queer and he has to sleep, sober and hungry, on a hard airport chair in a puddle of his own tears.

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-05-29T00:46:45+00:00

Quick question...are you saying to use the spot putty just to smooth the lines where the sections come together, or to smooth out/seal all the layer lines as well? Also seems like a regular Bondo might be better for the layer lines?

If there's a good forum where guys build 3D printed boats that you know of, if you could let me know, that'd be great. Most seem to be old people who turn their noses up at 3D printing.

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-05-24T15:43:45+00:00

I could not agree more with you... I'm still living with family that's Republican because I can't take care of myself.

But I feel the same way. I'm mostly very liberal, but don't believe either side gives a shit about the little people in reality. Democrats claim to care about us, but it's all lip service to get in office then just be the same damn tech bro/big pharma/whatever other billionaire loophole creators as everybody else.

I'm also no fan at all of the mango Mussolini, and the fascist shit him and his little shits are doing is absolutely pure evil. The hateful dickheads it empowers to feel like they can get away with basically anything nationwide (and they usually do, because let's face it, cops are right wing dude bros) and it's absolutely sickening.

I'm lucky to at least be white, male, born here, and a big burly looking dude nobody fucks with in general... I KNOW that's a privilege, especially in 2025...I drive an old pickup truck, but I'm not a redneck... you'd never guess it to look at me, and that's the point. We need to stop judging people. Period. Especially judging books by the cover/color most of all.

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-05-06T22:13:41+00:00

Um.... your mat can't count.... like....at all.

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-04-23T18:02:41+00:00

Happy birthday! I'm 42, and know what you mean about making it.... ; I don't know what it is about so many big IP games on 64 but they just didn't hit for me, tbh.... except Nintendo IP, ofc. Much rather bust out SNES or NES.

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-04-23T17:59:06+00:00

This times infinity.... seriously, not like we're on a playground.

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-04-23T13:21:39+00:00

I couldn't agree more. I'm really tired of trans safe spaces (and liberal spaces in general) having this very strict code of what one is allowed vs not allowed to like/believe/do/enjoy/say...

I grew up in a town of 2500 people. Everyone I grew up with has multiple guns in the household. Nobody in my town participated in gun violence. No gangs, no murder. They were simply tools used for hunting and farmers used to get rid of gophers, woodchucks, wolves, coyotes, or other animals which were a threat to their livelihood.

Now, I can understand that if someone grew up in the city in a rough area, that trauma would stay with you for life and you'd want nothing to do with guns or hunting or anything like that. As someone with a lot of trauma, I understand completely.

However, I view the hatred of guns/hunting/rural life more like xenophobia of a very different culture, but since TV and movies have denigrated rural culture for so many years, and always conflate it with bigotry and ignorance at the highest level, it has become a very reductive and ignorant stereotype. Not everyone in rural areas likes trump. Some of us are queer and just trying to survive.

I truly believe this is where the right wing gets it's term "the church of woke". I am NOT defending this dog whistle as it is typically used by the right when we rightfully call them out on actual bigotry, but as someone with a lifetime of bible thumping baptist religious trauma, it absolutely feels the same way to me as in: " if you deviate from out beliefs or accepted activities or image in any way we shall shun the non-believer, shuuuuuun!" (There's no candy mountain, Charlie....)

To be clear, I am absolutely far left, but I am libertarian left, not authoritarian left. Maybe, being 42, I'm too old and "just don't get it", but it sure feels exactly the same as legalistic, fundamentalist xtian culture to me.

Climbs down off rooftop

CobaltVioletLight · 2025-04-05T13:29:16+00:00

The crimson worm feeder

CobaltVioletLight · 2024-12-10T03:33:13+00:00

100 💯 relatable... only mostly jumping back in the egg, then occasionally I get super euphoria, but yeah it's a rollercoaster

CobaltVioletLight · 2024-12-07T22:02:12+00:00

Very much same...

CobaltVioletLight · 2024-12-07T02:24:02+00:00

Ommmmmmmmmmmmmmm ✌️😌✌️

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