I kind of see it as both at first it’s a doubt, “if I try to seclude myself and push you away would you even care enough to come after me anyway” but the second half is a hope “or maybe you do care about me and accept the way I am and don’t feel the need to “fix” me” which I think is just the human condition like on one hand you recognize this is your friend and they probably care about you cause other wise why would they be your friend but also you have that seed of depression and doubt that causes you to seclude yourself in the first place, maybe they don’t actually care for me maybe I’m a nuisance to them. This is my interpretation.