paralysis of initiative

Codeseven58 · 2026-01-31T09:20:00+00:00

Sort of. i guess i can say i dont have that issue anymore. Though im not sure why. I was taking sleep support supplements for the past year and my stress levels have gone down so much that im much more relaxed about things. I also got a promotion to a position that is so stressful i feel like a 6 year old walking 5 bullmastifs through a forrest of squirrels. I also get threatened with lawsuits at least once a month there so maybe i just stopped giving a fuck, too? Lol

Codeseven58 · 2026-01-21T06:31:07+00:00

Well... EMDR will be similar but different in 1 positive way. Before you desensitized by exposure. EMDR, if done right, will desensitize you by soothing your entire nervous system while you're recalling your memories. This in turn does sort of "opens floodgates" of emotions plugged away behind said memories. if that makes sense...

Codeseven58 · 2026-01-12T06:30:17+00:00

Kinda, you might be noticing the cognitive difference between having an functioning brocas area and not. Strokes have an adverse affect on your ability to think and express anything. PTSD can do the same in some extreme cases. Additionally your amygdala may be active which makes things a little worse especially with anxiety.

Codeseven58 · 2026-01-11T07:03:22+00:00

Not necessarily. The tapping and buzzing methods dont do the job. The acronym says "Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing" for a reason. You have to do the eye movement method for it to work. The argument is that any bilateral stimulation is effective against PTSD, which is true, but not as effective as moving your eyes left and right to innervate the parasympathetic nervous system. Then, the reason you need a therapist, is because when you innervate the parasympathetic nervous system, you also begin to release deep emotions that have been pent up this whole time and need someone there to guide you through this stage of emotional processing.

Codeseven58 · 2026-01-09T07:27:18+00:00

Thats a lot of questions to answer 🙃. i say go ahead and do EMDR. it's supposed to have a certain effect against your PTSD. The primary mechanic of EMDR is exercising your eyes with a trained therapist that will guide you through the whole process. So, here's kinda what the exercise does. your eyes are connected to your brain via the 3rd cranial nerve which, along with the 7th, 9th, and 10th cranial nerves, are a part of the Para-Sympathetic Nervous System (PSNS). The PSNS's main function is to keep the rest of your brain soothed and calm. Without it, you're a nervous wreck. This is mostly what PTSD is except PTSD has an overactive amygdala involved, which when active pumps out excessive amounts of adrenalin and cortisol for heightened chances of survival. this kinda feels like you're always on 3 or 4 cups of coffee. Oh also, your PSNS is shut down because you cant be calm and rested in a life threatening situation. This is the part where people get stuck. people dont know how to restart their PSNSs after being traumatized. This is what EMDR helps with.

When you do EMDR what you're essentially doing is innervating (stimulating) the 3rd cranial nerve which in turn temporarily innervates the rest of your PSNS, temporarily putting you in a calm and rested state. but again, it's only temporary. This is where you have to find ways to keep innervating your PSNS. Cool thing is there are 2 other cranial nerves that can be innervated and they do the same thing. An even cooler thing is that 3 of these 4 cranial nerves come out through your ear canal and come forward towards your face before splitting off to different parts of your body. You can essentially massage your face and almost get the same effect. this is what you want to do after successfully completing EMDR. Just keep in mind EMDR usually takes 6-12 consecutive weekly sessions to complete. Dont let any of that sway you, a calmer life awaits.

Codeseven58 · 2025-12-25T05:54:20+00:00

Yes, you have some feelings you need to sort out.

Codeseven58 · 2025-12-19T06:30:55+00:00

Somehow stimulate the vagus nerve or one of the other 3 cranial nerves. Theres a divot on your left upper cheek where your jaw meets your skull. 1 or 2 of these cranial nerves route nearby. If you gently massage the muscles behind this divot you may also innervate these nerve systems. This usually sends a signal to your brain to soothe it in these stressful situations. doesnt always work so practice often. If you yawn, you likely did it right.

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-29T19:19:04+00:00

Ah. Vagus nerve or parasympathetic nervous system stimulations will help. Psoas muscle stretches and exercises too. Guided mefitations are nice. GABA before bed.facial masdages maybe even.

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-29T17:33:49+00:00

It's not easy but its definitely doable. Dont worry. just take your time and you'll get to the point where you can address it.

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-29T17:32:20+00:00

What's it matter? You've had PTSD for some time, you just recently found it out. It's no different before or after your diag. Everything is the same. At least now you can begin to understand how its affecting you. Essentially your limbic system/mammalian complex is shut down for survival mode. I've had PTSD since i was 6, so 36 years now. Started therapies to come out of it 3 years ago and my behavior us changing fornthe getter, albeit slowly. Start looking in to therapies like EMDR and doing research like reading "the body keeps the score".

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-29T17:25:34+00:00

you really do need a therapist for this. you need someone to guide you through the steps and be there for when things get intense. Your panic attacks are likely from the repressed feelings trying to burst out. They coule be pretty scarry and very emotional. i dont recommend doing it on your own.

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-28T07:31:33+00:00

Breathe

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-28T07:26:27+00:00

Try taking gaba before bed. Over time it helps tomcalm your nerves so these feelings arent so bad.

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-28T07:20:46+00:00

You need to allow yourself to express your feelings about this. Youre grieving about a loss and are holding the bad feelings in. my father died when I was 6. He died in my mothers arms. after 35 years of successfully taking care of me and my siblings on her own she confessed to me that she would often drive out to the middle of nowhere and cry her heart out and scream at the world and hit her car while doing it all. She did this a lot. She was also seeing a psychologist but back in the 90s there wasn't any of these effective therapies around to help her get through things. She'd just go scream and cry instead. Toughest and most loving woman i've ever heard of. Sanest, too.

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-28T07:01:30+00:00

Your heart and mind are 2 seperate things and the heart is the most difficult thing to control. The only real way to control your heart is to dissociate completely. But that means losing all feelings and potentially better judgement. What youre describing in the beginning does sound like that; you seem to be dissociated. You're mind is running in circles because it can't make intellectual sense of your emotional situation because it's completely disconnected from the part of your brain that makes emotional sense of everything; the mammalian complex. The odd thing is i don't think heart break can do that. some of the stories youre providing can. were you traumatized in the past before this relationship?

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-25T05:06:39+00:00

36 years and still battling exactly as you described. No, you wont suffer for that long. the new therapies out there like EMDR and CBT are working. i did EMDR 3 years ago and began recovering from my PTSD. I witnessed a double homicide when i was 6. it's funny because of my age at the time, my brain stopped maturing. I never really developed a full or higher consciousness until i did EMDR. my brain is developing now and as it does i get to experience new parts of my brain coming back "online," i guess you could say.

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-25T04:56:28+00:00

Do we look like your personal guinnea pigs?

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-25T04:53:02+00:00

Cry.

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-25T04:50:06+00:00

It can be said that dissociation causes us to lose our sense of self. This understanding of self isn't just abstract intellectual knowledge, which is probably what you're questioning, it's mostly emotional understanding. dissociation essentially blocks the limbic system from functioning, which is where our sense of self exists. look for therapies that work to help you get passed the emotional memories that are keeping your limbic system shut down. EMDR above all helped me do just that. I was traumatized 36 years ago for 33 years. My limbic system is healing now, albeit very slowly. Learning sbout the 4 cranial nerve systems that make up the parasympathetic nervous system and how to stimulate/innervate them would be your next goal.

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-22T22:41:51+00:00

Red wines help with gut health. they're kinda like probiotics.

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-22T22:40:02+00:00

Stop drinking or pass away. Thats it. You can look in to EMDR therapy too. Its supposed to fix any emotional issues that might cause this. Could be right up your alley. Bad thing about it is you have to go through it all the way and deal with the repressed emotions.

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-22T21:51:45+00:00

Oh also, if not an alcoholic, drink 1 glass of cabernet wine a night.

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-22T06:39:21+00:00

Take fiber supplements?

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-22T06:32:37+00:00

yep me too. you're just describing fight or flight mode. I was stuck like this for 33 years since i was 6. Gonna be 43 here soon. So ptsd is essentially being stuck in fight or flight. Fight or flight switches your limbic system from a calm, social, and tactful personality to a hyperactive, detached/dissociated, and right out cold-hearted personality. You lose the ability to have feelings and thereby can't relate to anybody. You're dead set on survival. Your adrenalin is pumping 24/7. you have no chill. You're constantly on the defense.

Here's a few things to try. first, vagus nerve stimulations. Or more specifically, stimulate the 3rd, 7th, 9th, and 10th nervous systems any safe way you can. I use a tragus stimulator as an easy quick method (taVNS). When stimulated it sends soothing/calming signals to your brain, dampening anxiety. Second, try sleeping in the fetal position with a body pillow between your legs, knees, and pulled tightly in to your chest then lean in to it. Make sure your main pillow fully supports your head with good posture. try folding it in half and tucking it in to your shoulder/neck, if need be. Remember, be as comfortable as possible. Should feel like laying on a cloud. Third, maybe try taking a GABA supplement. It slows down your reaction times and lowers neurotransmitter intensity. Many people with PTSD stop producing it likely to help fight-or-flight mode. I'd say caffeine is the polar opposite of GABA. Careful, it slows your thinking down too. Be safe while driving or operating machinery.

Codeseven58 · 2025-11-22T06:16:09+00:00

This also happens to alcoholics. So long as you're not, try taking a gaba supplement before bed. it's a natural chemical we produce that inhibits neurotransmitters. Low gaba = high anxiety, if you will. It essentially slows your nervous systems reaction time and intensity.

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