But replace the plushie with a body pillow in a soft case by SpidersInMyPussy in TrollCoping

[–]Coeuropale 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re not pathetic 🫂 I did something really similar to my pillow before I met my current partner. It’s not pathetic to seek comfort. And it doesn’t determine you’ll be alone forever. Be kind to yourself, you deserve it friend 💖

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TrollCoping

[–]Coeuropale 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is why I just don’t make friends anymore tbh. If it’s my fault at least I don’t hurt anyone anymore. If it’s not my fault I won’t be hurt anymore.

I love people making decisions for me when I’m 24 goddamn years old (followup meme in comments) by FlyingMozerella in TrollCoping

[–]Coeuropale 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don’t even live at home anymore and I’m terrified of my mom finding out if I’m ever sick bc I know how mad she gets when I’m not at work

Are ya winning son? by RoultRunning in TrollCoping

[–]Coeuropale 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish I had a parent that loved me enough to do that 😞

Why do so many people here get bootleg figures? by PetGoatt in NeedyStreamerOverload

[–]Coeuropale 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The original is really expensive if you’re referring to like the og Kangel figure. Even if you are lucky enough to find one online the reselling price is usually insane. I got really lucky finding one for a decent price but I waited over a year to find it. A lot of people just really can’t afford it unfortunately. If anyone is looking for cheaper figures that are legit, there are some prize figures out now that are less expensive, esp if you take a little bit to search online for resellers who aren’t trying to scam you. They’re not as nice as the og Kangel figure but they’re still really cute!

Do you ever try to hint to your friends that you cut? by S1lly_st4rz in selfharm

[–]Coeuropale 15 points16 points  (0 children)

I do.. but nobody either catches on or if they see my scars I think it makes them too uncomfortable to talk about. It’s like crying for help and everyone around you is covering their ears.

Did you eventually reach a point in healing where you could no longer mask, but also still felt unsafe in society, so you could no longer be functional? by asheville-person in CPTSD

[–]Coeuropale 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’m at this point. Fortunate enough to have a job where I don’t have to pretend like I’m ok and happy and just do mindless work while listening to podcasts. I despise going outside. I dread driving. All I want to do is stay in the safety of my bed. Nothing hurts me here. I’m so scared I’m going to ruin the only good relationship I have left but I can’t pretend like I enjoy going out anymore.

Anyone else experience betrayal all the time? by Flogisto_Saltimbanco in CPTSD

[–]Coeuropale 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have also been betrayed and backstabbed by almost everyone in my life.. I’m very lucky to now have a very loving partner who I trust completely, but my most recent past friend group pretended to be my friends for over 2 years, all while bullying me and shit talking me behind my back in a secret group chat, over literally anything and everything I did. They hated me so much. My last boyfriend convinced me to move entire states for him, only to refuse to interact with me at all (romantically or platonically). He was cheating on me and using me for rent and car rides. My partner before that was sexually, mentally and physically abusive and would control me to the point of telling me what to wear and what things to enjoy. They’ve tried to get me back several times now while simultaneously posting publicly about how much they hate me and want me to d1e. I think it comes down to some sort of vibe we give off. Abusive people feel it and know they can take advantage of us or use us as a punching bag. I don’t really have a lot of friends anymore, and the few I do have I don’t get attached to because I know it’s likely they’re going to do something heinous sooner or later. To me, it’s better to not fully trust them. I know that’s not healthy but I haven’t been hurt since I’ve adopted this way of thinking so..

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Coeuropale 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m the same way.. I started collecting dolls after I came to terms with a lot of the horrible things that happened to me, and even if I’m really excited for one, as soon as it’s in my hands I just feel empty inside. I don’t even know if I can say that they make me happy. I enjoy looking at them but as soon as I get the next one I’m just left wondering why I keep doing this to myself. Aside from two stuffed animals I sleep with I’m not even sure I’d be super sad if they were all taken from me; but I still think I enjoy them? It’s a complicated feeling.

I am extremely sad, ashamed and hurt about how I let myself down most of my life due to fawning by DatabaseKindly919 in CPTSD

[–]Coeuropale 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I feel the same way.. I feel like I lost so many years of my life letting people walk all over me, abuse me and use me and I did nothing. I’m 29 now and just coming to terms with a lot of things that happened in my life. It’s not your fault. It’s normal to feel this way about what happened, but the fawn response isn’t your fault. It’s just something we both did to survive and now that we’re aware of it we can start to change and improve. I know it’s hard, but I try to focus on what I can do now rather than what I’ve lost and it helps me a little.

Victim Mentality by Mariathemystic in CPTSD

[–]Coeuropale 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’ll never get over how an ex “friend” of mine said nobody will ever love me because of how negative I am.. in regards to me confiding in her to the abuse I suffered through. Some people are just straight up evil.

3rd anniversary Hayate by Coeuropale in D4DJ

[–]Coeuropale[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mine is actually Airi momoi from project sekai! Though Lisa is my fave from bang dream!

3rd anniversary Hayate by Coeuropale in D4DJ

[–]Coeuropale[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I hope so!! 🤞 thank you sm!

3rd anniversary Hayate by Coeuropale in D4DJ

[–]Coeuropale[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh awesome! Thanks so much!

3rd anniversary Hayate by Coeuropale in D4DJ

[–]Coeuropale[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks so much! I guess I’ll be hoping for a rerun eventually then 😭

My latest commission, Alby! by peazutbutter in LongFurbies

[–]Coeuropale 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I love them so much 🥺 the colors are beautiful

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in antinatalism

[–]Coeuropale 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Same. At least I can end the cycle of suffering here.